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I'm Pregnant!

2012-01-30T16:06:00.000-08:00

Last Saturday, I found myself staring at my body in the mirror, cupping my breasts and weighing them. They have become bigger and heavier. That's when I took the pregnancy test kit into the bathroom. 2 lines appeared. I never expected that. I felt surprised, doubtful, worried and happy at the same time.

On my way home from the INC Unity Games in Bulacan, I bought 4 more different brands of pregnancy test kits. I really needed to make sure it's for real and not just some short-term happiness brought about by a test kit malfunction.

After a cross-brand testing (LOL), it's been confirmed. It wasn't a test kit malfunction. Happiness is real now. I felt worried and happy at the same time. Worried because I had so many stuff going on the past months. Asthma, acid reflux, a fever... All had medication. I'm also a spa fangirl. I love massages and I have been told that pregnant women should never get massages. It could be an old wives' tale but that is something I need to Google later.

I had no idea how long the baby's been there. My menstrual cycle is irregular. I was used to not having periods for 3 to 4 months. My last period was September last year and that's about 4 months from today. February would've been the time to do a pregnancy test if not because of the growing breast thing. We went to my doctor at The Medical City who recommended I undergo a transvaginal ultrasound so we went to In My Womb (Glorietta-The Link) for one.

My husband and I were betting on how many weeks the baby's been there. I say 2 weeks, he said 3. And then, after the doctor inserted the transducer, I exclaimed "Bakit ang laki!?" (Why is it so big?) "We were expecting to see a dot."

I saw a 14-week malikot (playful/frolicsome) little human being with a huge head, a vertebrae, a heart, 4 limbs and everything. I was trying to stop myself from crying, trying to be cool. Asking questions that the gynecologist happily answered. She even tried moving the ultrasound around so we can see the baby's face using a 3D/4D ultrasound machine but he keeps turning his back on us. Mahiyain ata. Mana kay daddy. (Probably shy. Got it from his dad.)

Ave. Ultrasonic Age: 14 weeks
Ultrasonic EDD: July 29, 2012
EFW: 85 grams
Fetal Heart Rate: 162 beats per minute
Gender: Unknown

I'm happy to see the baby has all 4 limbs and seems to be very energetic. I hope and pray that everything will be OK and I believe that God will take care of our baby, His precious gift to us. I remember, it was just last week, during tupad at the Nueva Ecija Conference of the INC Unity Games. I was dancing soulja boy and jumping around not knowing I was already 3 months pregnant. O_O I can imagine my baby trying his best to hold on to my uterus. O_O

People kept telling me that I'll never be pregnant because I'm too fat or too old so I was really not expecting this. Didn't even feel the symptoms until about 2 weeks ago. But then again, nothing is ever impossible to God. If He wills it, no one can stop Him and for this, I am truly grateful.

Come to think of it, people also told me I will not get married and yet I did. I really have to stop listening to people.

The Best Days of My Life

2012-01-11T00:08:00.000-08:00

Lately, I am seeing my home and my husband as my everyday sanctuary. Like whatever bad thing may happen, it goes away as soon as I get home and see a smile on my husband's face. This is where I feel at peace and disconnected from the world.

If I knew having a family is like this, I would've married years ago. But then again, it wouldn't be the right time nor the right person. Patience is always a good thing because everything is best in God's time.

Iglesia ni Cristo Buys a Catholic Church and Brings It Back to Life

2012-01-06T00:14:00.000-08:00

The formerly known Holy Rosary Catholic Church located in Iowa, USA was established in 1893 by the Catholic Church. 119 years ago, Catholic church leaders have used holy water around the sanctuary in order to do this, a common practice of Catholics during dedications.

And back to the present day, this same church has been dedicated again, but this time, by the Iglesia ni Cristo (Church of Christ) with tears of happiness and religious fervor during a 2-hour ceremony attended by 850 people that tripled Jackson County's population of 260.

Aside from the several dozens of residents of the county, most of the attendees in the church and 3 more overflow areas were members of the Iglesia ni Cristo from all over the country. They have all come to this dedication to see and hear our Executive Minister Brother Eduardo V Manalo.

[Picture above shows people making way into the Iglesia ni Cristo in La Motte on Wednesday.]

It took 2 months to turn an old church that stood empty for 5 years and renovate its sanctuary. The renovation stripped away the stained glass windows, crosses and crucifixes and has improved its utilities through adding of crystal chandeliers and high-tech media systems to name a few. Local firms were hired by the church to do the renovation which includes a rich wood interior altar furnishing. The church bought the church building in June 2011 for $180,000 and has so far put $621,000 into it for the renovations.

[Picture above shows the exterior of the Iglesia Ni Cristo in La Motte, Iowa Wednesday.]

The brothers Mike and Gary Bonifas of the construction firm the church has hired to do the renovations said that the church members were "excellent" to work with, although the project was challenging.

"It was sad to see our church go, but doing this right like they did has given it back some of its glory," said Mike Bonifas.

"Sitting here empty, it was an ugly reminder of what was here, the social center of our town and our religion," added Gary Bonifas. "This is an overall plus for the community."

Buses from many states line the parking lot during the dedication although the actual membership of this new locale is only 22. The members expect growth in the next months and have been hoping to host regional events now that the church has finally been officially dedicated.

[Picture above shows monitors projecting Executive Minister Brother Eduardo V Manalo into an overflow room during the dedication service.]

During the dedication, a 48-voice choir in white robes with sage-green trim marched in perfect step from the back to their seats in the front of the congregation. The hymns were rich and as these songs and prayers begin, the congregation were overcome by emotion, many quietly sobbing.

Beginning Wednesday, the towering church steeple was brightly lit at night, drawing attention to the highest point in La Motte. This is just one of the many churches dedicated in the past year.

"A palpable proof of (the church's) rapid growth and expansion is this house of worship now being dedicated to God here in La Motte, Iowa," said Brother Edward Maranan during an opening statement.

"I think people had reservations (about the new church) at first," said La Motte Mayor Paul Konrady, who attended the dedication, "But as a whole, they are pleased now. This brings this building back to life."

The Iglesia ni Cristo has "evangelical footholds" in 90 countries on 6 continents and counts its members in the millions.

*** Worship services at the Iglesia ni Cristo in La Motte, Iowa are 7:30 PM Wednesdays and 11:00 AM Saturdays.

Questions? You can contact us at: The Iglesia ni Cristo's Official Facebook Page

Source: Telegraph Herald (Thursday, January 5, 2012)

This is KADIWA (Ingress)

2011-12-22T05:59:00.000-08:00

Huge signage now outside the west tent.

The spacious and still empty venue.

Truck with steel frames have arrived for the set up.

More trucks arrive for the sound and lighting systems.

Event signage being carried.

Stage set up has begun.

The map of the entire event.

Something to look forward to for all the singles out there.

I'm Losing Weight Again!

2011-12-16T16:47:00.001-08:00

Still trying to figure out why because I just ate Sam Gyup Sal last Thursday night and I was expecting to gain at least 6 lbs but instead, I have been losing weight. Awesome. O_O

Happy Thanksgiving!

2011-12-14T19:05:00.000-08:00

Just a few more days and it's Thanksgiving! 2011 has been such an awesome year. I have been reflecting on the entire year and Gosh~! So many blessings to be thankful for. Where do I begin?

1. I'm now married. God blessed me with a husband who has a pure heart. Walang bisyo except matulog. Which is fine since I love sleeping too.

2. Got me a new tungkulin. I'm now with a non-locale/district based kind of tungkulin which uses my current skill set. I feel more useful to the church now and I love it!

3. I got to see Australia this year because of my new job. Nice place. I love the brethren at the Locale of Melbourne. They're so nice. And the people are cheerful and polite. I like that.

4. New job in a new industry. I'm finally out of the gaming industry. I'm honestly relieved. I feel like a normal person now. I got nice bosses too. I'm very thankful for that.

5. New schedule. I used to be nocturnal when I was in gaming. But now, I sleep at 9 or 10PM and wake up at 5 or 6AM again because of the industry shift. I feel so normal.

I never had a moment in my life where I felt alone. I know in my heart that God has been with me all throughout this year. I have been protected, blessed and guided. And for all the big wonderful things and those little blessings, I thank God.

Sending off OFWs: Good or Bad?

2011-11-24T20:01:00.000-08:00

Saw this from the President's Facebook feed. And I felt sad. Human resource has become our country's number one product. As a former OFW, I somehow feel their pain. Especially those working in countries where OFWs are not treated right.

They had to leave the Philippines so they can send money to their families. So they can have better lives. Doctors working as caregivers or nurses, college graduates working as house maids. Accepting a level of demotion on their actual status just to get accepted overseas, leaving their spouses and children alone, growing without the needed parental guidance.

Yes, business is good. But what is this really doing to the Filipino family?

One can hardly blame out country's government for seeing the OFW phenomenon solely in terms of remittances. Can't blame them since this is definitely our number 1 product.

The deployment of many Filipino workers for employment overseas produces various other effects to which the financial managers of this country would be systematically blind. How families and communities cope with the departure of huge numbers of individuals is certainly worth knowing. How young children adjust to the reality of absentee parents, or what spouses do to keep marital bonds strong despite prolonged separation, are long-term effects that no nation that has been sucked in a big way into the global diaspora can possibly ignore. But such are not the concerns of economic managers. Increasing cases of incest, bigamy, broken homes, abused women (especially those in countries where their rights are not protected) are only few of the problems we face.

I feel lucky that neither me nor my husband need to leave the country in order for us to have enough. I thank God for this. We have good jobs that pay us enough while also giving us enough time to spend together and especially with regards to performing our duties in the church. God is truly awesome.

Kapampangan Cooking > Diet Plan

2011-11-24T17:20:00.000-08:00

Weigh in yesterday, I saw a whopping 2.6 lbs that just got added to my previous week's. I felt a gush of mixed feelings:

1. Sad. Because I gained weight.
2. Shame. Because I knew I will be asked to stand in front of the entire batch that I gained weight.
3. Happy. Because I lost 2.4 lbs since Monday.

Last weekend, I went to Tarlac with church buddies to work on some important things and found myself showered with the warm welcome of other brethren. When I say warm welcome, I meant food. Lots of food. And the Kapampangans are known for their awesome cooking skills. They make sure their dishes get enough ingredients and don't leave anything behind. They will never allow their reputation in cooking to be tarnished. This is where my diet failed me. I am, admittedly, weak when faced by Kapampangan cooking.

Dreaming Again

2011-10-25T18:04:00.000-07:00

Dream 1: Seeing my mom, hugging her tight, smelled her skin. It was so real.

Conclusion: I miss her.

Dream 2: Walking with my husband down Dela Rosa. When I turned, saw my ex instead of my husband. I got angry and woke up.

Conclusion: I still hate my ex.

Dream 3: I was trying on some hats. Royal family-ish hats. But the vendor won't let me buy two.

Conclusion: Unknown.

Dream 4: A pile of timber fell on me and all I got was a bump on the head. I prayed and thanked God for saving me.

Conclusion: My subconscious is praying now? Wow. O_O Now I am 100% sure that I have completely turned my life around.

Losing Weight (Again)

2011-09-19T21:28:00.000-07:00

Lost weight since the wedding. My husband has been very determined to make me lose weight. Not really super into this but gotta do what the husband wants. It's all part of being a wifey.

Ching's Weight-loss Plan:

1. Full-protein, low-glycemic breakfast - Soy protein shake
Breakfast is the most important meal of the day. Herbalife's Formula 1 is a Grade-A full-meal alternative that is all-protein.

2. Water therapy (2L water everyday)
Keeps your skin smooth, your digestive system in good shape and your mind thinking that you're not always hungry. Sometimes, when we're hungry, we're actually just thirsty.

3. Anti-fluid retention tabs
Herbalife's vitamin-mineral herbal complex is what I'm using now. But right after this is done, I plan to move to Lasix. I've tried that before and I lost a lot of weight because of this when I was in college. If you're doing water therapy, taking this is a good thing to make sure water doesn't stick to your thighs. It also prevents your body from absorbing too much salt.

4. Aloe vera concentrate
For cleansing. It really helps. I take 1 cap-full during the morning. More if needed, depending on what I eat during lunch or dinner.

5. Fibre supplement
Since I already have aloe vera in the morning and I only eat protein shake which is supposed to be absorbed by my body, I take this 30 minutes before lunch time. Currently, I'm enjoying C-Lium Fibre. Mahirap lang lunukin so you have to dilute it in something that tastes good and drink it fast before it turns to goo. It absorbs fat so OK sya for lunch.

6. Reduced rice to 1 cup a day
1 medium grain cup is about 242 calories. It's super high in sugar and I consider it evil. But not eating it at all will make me feel so deprived. I can't take it off my list yet. Not eating rice is soooo un-Asian.

7. Followed the Veggie>Fish>Chicken>Pork>Beef order
Veggie is heaven. If you want meat, chicken is good. if there's no fish and chicken, pork is better than beef. Beef should never be eaten. Red meat is evil. LOL.

8. Walked from the office going home
Not much but I plan to do this again some more. When I lose 20 more lbs, I'll start running.

9. Full-protein, low-glycemic dinner
Still a goal. But I'm getting there.

I stopped recently but I'm gonna start again soon. Actually already reached 196 but regained 2-4 lbs for 1 month of not doing this. It's cool though, it'll be chicken-mani to lose that again.

Watch out people, Ching is about to blow your mind!

LOL

Changed Perspectives

2011-09-18T18:04:00.000-07:00

And so I'm married. I haven't blogged about that and there's no reason why I haven't. I guess I just found no time to do it... or think it's too personal? Or maybe because it's too serious.

One thing is for sure though, it made me look at things in a different way. All of a sudden, I don't feel alone. I used to love being alone but being with someone ain't so bad either. I got sick last week and my husband took care of me. I haven't had that for years and it feels nice. The warmth of companionship.

It changed my view of the world, the people around me, my sense of security. All of sudden, I have a reason to go home. I have a reason to shop. A reason to take care of myself, a new reason for everything I do.

My marriage created a chain of reactions, and what seems like a new set of endless cycle. A parallel universe so different from my previous one.

In this new world, my man is simple, caring, loving and has a good heart.

In my previous world, my man was a fictional Major in the US Air Force, with blond hair, a personal goal to avenge the death of his bestfriend, and a killer sonic boom.

See how drastic changes in perspectives get?

Celebrating Software Freedom Day!

2011-09-16T22:53:00.000-07:00

September 17 is Software Freedom Day!

IT Group (working title), lead by president Efren Tercias, joins (again) the world-wide celebration of Software Freedom Day! The goal of this celebration is to educate the worldwide public about the benefits of using high quality FOSS in education, in government, at home, and in business.

During these days, where piracy has been a common, yet still an illegal practice, I believe it is important for people to learn about the disadvantages of using pirated software and the available alternatives available to them. Alternatives that are just as good as the paid ones.

With open software, there is no copyright. In fact, the father of open source, Richard Matthew Stallman came up with the concept of copyleft - the absence of licences, limitations and copyright.

Open source software is not only great for people who wish to use good and free alternatives to the usual office applications. It's also awesome for students who wanna learn how these softwares work, and those who wish to help the community by contributing to the improvement of the these open source softwares.

Just some months ago, I had the unfortunate and annoying encounter with a government agent and their minions. They did a raid in the building I was in. Of course they weren't able to get my laptop since I do not use pirated software but I saw the face of a scared college student who apparently did. I was able to "help out" and he successfully went home with his laptop. But I think that incident really scared the hell out of him.

There were installers given away during the event. I got me some and I plan to distribute this to those who need it. Better to go opensource than live in fear, right?

Thank God (and RMS, Linus and a bunch of other super geeks) for FOSS! :D

Support Details?

2011-09-15T18:45:00.000-07:00

http://www.supportdetails.com

A cool way to help you out in supporting clients with their software, installation or website issues.

All they need to do is:

1. Put in their name
2. Put their email, and
3. Your support email

Voila! All the details you need, sent to your email.

Details include:
1. Operating System,
2. Web Browser
3. IP Address
4. Javascript
5. Cookies
6. Screen Resolution
7. Browser Size
8. Color Depth
9. Flash Version

It's awesome! Mucho thanks to Sam Hemphill for the enlightenment.

INC builds the Largest Dome in the World!

2011-08-22T18:37:00.000-07:00

The contractor of the project, Hanwha Engineering and Construction Corp. (Hanwa E&C) is a development and construction company based in South Korea. Its vice Chairman Kim Hyun-chung shake hands with the INC Executive Minister Eduardo Manalo after the groundbreaking ceremony on Wednesday.

According to the Korean Herald, Philippine Arena is estimated to be worth $175 million contract which was signed on August 4, 2011. It has a seating capacity of 50,000 (seats), floor area of 74,000 square meters and its domed roof is nearly 36,000 square meters which makes it the "World's Largest Dome Arena".

Hanwha E&C will work for the said project for over 30 months and will be completed by 2014. The company said that the project will be conducted in design-build process in which the contractor is responsible for all related processes from designing to building the facility.

"The Philippine Arena is three times bigger than the Seoul Olympic Gymnastics Stadium, Korea's largest indoor Arena", said a Hanwha E&C official.

INC said that the Philippine Arena is a Centennial Project for the 100th Anniversary of the Iglesia Ni Cristo (INC) in the year 2014.

The picture below shows the area of location where the Philippine Arena is going to be built.

The particular place where the Philippine Arena will be built is in the Ciudad de Victoria, Bocaue, Bulacan.

Philippine Dome Arena Miniature Model

NEU Stadium

Sources: www.affordablecebu.com and www.koreanherald.com

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We build and maintain beautiful houses of worship and awesome structures for the glory of God. This is not for the glory of mere men.

Do we all give and contribute for this? Yes we do. With all love and respect we do. Because this is God's will.

Is there a certain percentage? (I hear this a lot from non-INC people) No... whatever our detractors and defamers say, there is no specific percentage. We give what comes from our hearts.

Hard to believe, yes? Especially with the fact that we are a religious miniroty, most of us are in a 3rd world country with little salary ranges... and then you see us building structures like this? But yeah... no required/specific percentage. Believe it. Lying is considered a sin for you, it is definitely a sin for us. (And we're more obedient. Just imagine that)

How are we able to do it? Because we have God on our side.

Some of us are poor, some are rich. This is expected in this life. But no INC are beggars. Ask every beggar you see on the streets. None of them are INC.

We have overseers who take care of each one of us. We care for each other. We are bound to love one another. And God cares for us dearly.

For those who are curious, you can go to any of our chapels nearest your vicinity. No pressure. Asking questions will not convert you immediately. (It honestly takes a pretty long time. 6-8 months minimum) Just ask for the pastor and you can ask the questions running in your mind why we do the things we do, and why we believe in certain things. All the answers will only be taken from the bible and will not come from their opinion. This is how we roll.

It is best that you know us first before going ahead and blindly throw stones at us. Investigate. Ask questions. Don't be hatin'.

Virtual Supermarket Inside A Subway Station

2011-08-22T16:34:00.000-07:00

I would never do my grocery shopping inside a subway station. The smells? The rats? The slime? Gross. (Plus, we do not have Subways in Manila. That's suicide for a country with rising water level for any amount of rain) But what about a virtual supermarket where you scan QR codes of items and have it delivered to you by the end of the day? That would be awesome!

They have that kind of virtual supermarket in a South Korea subway station (which is admittedly clean<-- Proven by yours truly). European grocery chain Tesco has ‘opened’ a store where the items are just pictures lined against the walls of subway stations and the currency is QR codes. Well, no, you still have to pay the mans his moneys, but the method is different: scan the QR code to add it to your shopping cart, checkout and then have items delivered to your home by the end of the day.

It’s definitely a two birds, one stone kind of awesomeness and it’s beginning to take off in South Korea. People who take the subway don’t have to make an extra stop at a grocery store, people are not wasting time waiting for a subway to arrive and the experience itself is a decent compromise between online shopping and brick and mortar buying. Obviously, you’d still need reliable mobile phone signal down in those tunnels for this to really work, though. And that’s a whole ‘nother story here.

Source: http://www.gizmodo.com.au

Problems why I don't feel Manila is ready for this awesome idea:
1. Number of Smart phones used by people aren't as many
2. Wi-fi ain't as widely available and the speed ain't so fast
3. Crime rate on train stations. Prone to pickpockets and hold-ups.
4. Phone+Identity theft. Someone steals your phone and gets groceries delivered to their shanty under the bridge?
6. Credit cards. We're still a cash-lovin' country IMHO. Unless Smart Money is used... and I don't even know how to use that.

Eagle Bayan Care-avan

2011-08-06T01:16:00.000-07:00

Today was a historical day. Eagle Broadcasting Corporation, owner of Net 25, DZEC and Pinas FM has relaunched with a gigantic community outreach program - Eagle Bayan Care-avan.

This outreach was done in 5 different sites: Oreta Amphitheatre, Marikina Sports Complex, San Andres Gym, Amoranto Stadium and Cuneta Astrodome. 5 Venues and 10,000 recipients. An activity that has never been done until now. This is first time in Philippine hostory to have simultaneous free medical, dental and legal services in 5 different sites!

This outreach program has Free Medical and Dental aid courtesy of the Philippine Medical Association and the Philippine Dental Association. They also have Free Legal Consultation courtesy of the Integrated Bar of the Philippines.

Aside from that, groceries were given away to recipients right after their consultation courtesy of this event's partners and sponsors.

Quotas reached, more than 10,000 people have been served. Every recipient and volunteer left the venues and packed up with smile on their faces. Helping each other has always been a Filipino trait. This is Bayanihan in action.

The best way to feel happiness is by making other people happy. Even on a cold climate such as today, the warmth of the volunteer doctors, dentists, nurses and lawyers helped ease our fellowmen's pain. Awesome job everyone!

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Super thanks to this event's supporters:

Government
• Dept. of Health – Sec. Enrique Ona, ASEC Elmer Punzalan

NGOs
• Medical Profession
• Philippine Medical Association (PMA)
• National President – Dr. Oscar Tinio
• Chairman, Media – Dr. Mike Aragon
• Valenzuela Medical Society – Dra. Victoria Villarica, President, Dra. Flor Munsayac
• Philippine Dental Association (PDA)
• Philippine Nurses Association (PNA)

Academe
• New Era University – Dr. Cora Osorio, President
• Fatima University & Medical Center – Dr. Vicente Santos, Medical Director

Business
• Food & Beverage
• San Miguel Corporation
• Universal Robina Corporation (URC Foundation)
• Personal Care Products
• Unilever
• Colgate-Palmolive
• Splash Corp.
• Fastfoods & Restaurants
• McDonald’s
• Rai Rai Ken
• Kopiroti
• Baby Products
• Babyflo
• Media
• Business Mirror
• Pharmaceutical
• Abbott
• Banks
• Banco de Oro
• Bank of Commerce
• Food Supplements
• Biocomic

NGO
• Pharmaceutical Association of the Philippines (PHAP)

Other Co-Advocate sponsors
• BOSS
• Synetcom
• Group 5
• Philusa
• JIMM’s Coffee
• RCC Amazing Touch
• RLR Cosmetics
• Ainon Baby Products
• Walter Bread
• Lifestyle
• Home Depot

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Lessons on Love by Disney

2011-03-23T23:35:00.000-07:00

While chatting with a friend, I reminisced childhood memories filled with princesses and the promise of true love. At the age of 8, while staring at a motel shaped like a castle from my bedroom window (I lived in Pasig), I once dreamt that someday my prince will come.

I used to sing while watching these since I was 4. With the perfect pitch, tone, tempo and vibrato applied of course. :P

Disney will roll in his grave if he can only see Disney today. Wizards of Waverly Place... Hannah Montana. Blah~ Everything fell apart after The Little Mermaid. IMHO, that's the worst cartoons you can ever show to your daughter. Teaching girls that's it's OK to disobey your father for some guy who is not your kind? Blah~

Shifting Priorities

2011-01-25T21:53:00.000-08:00

Life was just a game and I treated it like one. Until one day, I discovered that I have no control over it.

What is a game you can't control?

And so I decided to let go. With all trust, I've finally handed over the remote control of my life.

Life is the tsunami I ride with my surfboard of faith.

My life is now as bright as noon. Just as He promised.

The Blue Screen of Death

2010-12-22T07:33:00.000-08:00

Saw Time magazine with Mark Zuckerberg on the cover yesterday as Person of the Year when I was at 7-11 with brothers E-boy and Bryan. I bought it after being immediately convinced (with absolute absence of peer pressure) by E-boy so we can swap magazines after reading. I haven't finished Zuckerberg's story but there is one part in the article that totally made me realize something about myself.

Quoting from the magazine "Most alarmingly, if your signal-to-noise ratio drops below a critical threshold, Zuckerberg will turn his head and look off to one side as if he's hearing noises offstage, presenting you with his Roman-emperor profile. "If you're not making compelling points, he kind of just tunes out," Bosworth says. "He's not trying to be rude. He's just like, 'O.K., you're not the best use of this time anymore.' He's going to find a better use of his time, even if you're sitting right there."

I remember a number of instances that this happened to me. And usually, this occurs during a weekly managers' committee meeting at a company I used to work for during times our CEO was talking. I don't mean to be rude. The last thing I need is the CEO shouting at me for dozing off when he's talking but that is what was exactly happening to me. I find my face going on blue screen of death with a huge system error text every time the CEO comes into the meeting and starts talking about himself, his adventures, his new car or anything I am absolutely not interested to hear. I get a reboot after being pinched by one of the giggling Vice Presidents who're just amazed by what was happening to me. They thought that maybe I was making fun of the CEO. -_- But I wasn't. I hated those moments.

You see, you start your day with a list of things you and your staff needs to do. You go into a meeting to find out what other departments need from you and your team, and communicate what they can do for you in return. Mancoms are supposed to be bridging inter-departmental operational needs in order to ensure the company's continuous growth. I honestly hate meetings and want them to be as quick as possible but it ends up going on for hours with stuff you absolutely do not need to hear and then you worry about your daily task list, your attention is no longer in the room but somewhere else and then boom! The blue screen of death.

No, I didn't mean to be rude. I guess I'm just not into Junkmail.

God, You are the awesomest!

2010-12-21T02:06:00.000-08:00

Just got my flight itinerary from the office. Melbourne, here I come. The date is set. January 4. I'm honestly very excited. And a bit nervous. This is the first time I am stepping out of my comfort zone which is the online gaming industry. Been here since 2003. Eversince Ragnarok came into the Philippines and ~~destroyed~~ changed the lives of so many Pinoys. It's been fun. But did you ever get that feeling that you're stuck? It seemed that everybody's getting younger and then you get a slap on the face to realize that it is you who's getting too old. Yeap. It's time to pack my bags full of wonderful memories and move out.

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Wedding has been moved to June 1, 2011. Since I'm leaving for Australia on January 4, can't get married on January 11, right? But I feel that it's just right. It will give me and my fiance more time to prepare and save up for the wedding and for me to concentrate on my new job. I already have a dress anyway. I just need to tweak it a bit, I think.

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Fiance is now looking for a place in Makati. He found a job in McKinley Hills. He's now closer to me so we'll get to see each other more often than the usual once a month thing. He won't be registered at my locale though. He's probably going to Jackson or Makati instead of my beloved Locale of Bel-air.

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Thanksgiving just passed by. So many things to be thankful for. My new job, my wonderful fiance, my new friends. All the blessings I have received this year may even be more than what I deserve.

Life is good. God is the awesomest!

(Yes, there is no such word but "awesomest" is the only word I feel is acceptable to describe the holy being who's always been by my side. Always guiding me, protecting me and blessing me.)

Happy thanksgiving to all the members of the Ultimate Brotherhood Card. :P

Life. Finally.

2010-11-17T06:02:00.000-08:00

I have a LIFE!

1. I sleep more now. In fact, I have been hibernating like crazy. This is my way of making up for all the lost sleep in the previous months.
2. I stopped eating pork and beef. And I like the result. My skin is clearer now. I also have been moisturizing myself like crazy. Hello, Rosken!
3. I jog at night with my housemate and administratrix/mayordoma. I'm not yet aiming to lose weight (though I think I already have) but I like hanging out with them. They're fun people.
4. Saw Zarah, Jeff and Basti this weekend. And I will see them again this weekend for sure. Ah~ Old friends are super special and I'm glad I now have the opportunity to visit them when I feel like it.
5. Did 4 hours of bayanihan work at the kalihiman in one day. Did more last week. I'd do more but there won't be anything left to do in the next days so I have to stop and manage my stuff. I also attend the gawain, panata, etc. because I finally have all the time I ideally needed.
6. I'm cooking! Yes! You heard that right! I am cooking!!!

Just some days ago, my life has changed once again. Most of the things happening are, in my opinion, obviously beyond my control but I super like where I'm going. Some people are asking me why I'm so calm and relaxed. My answer is... I am not afraid. Because God is awesome and I know that he will never let me down.

What's next? A new job in a new industry, a new healthy diet, a new balanced work and exercise schedule, a solemn and simple wedding and a new husband.

Gamer Republic

2010-11-04T08:57:00.000-07:00

"Gamer Republic!" Those are the words that came out of my mouth that fateful night in Spicy Fingers while dancing to the loud music of the band.

What is it about? We have no freakin' idea. O_O All we know is that it'll be a collaboration between me (gamergirl) and Rain (NuDork).

Why is there a need for that? We haven't really figured it out yet. O_O All we know is that it's going to be fun. We are going to enjoy making it. Whatever it is.

We haven't really started planning on it as well. And I don't think we'll start on that soon either. We wanted to just take things slow and make it as we go. No pressure, no deadlines. It's going to be perfect!

Nothing fires us up more than "No content." Hahaha!

And I'm writing about this now just to make it clear that we've thought about it and we will do something about it soon. When we feel like it. ^_^

Here's to freedom!!!

Ex-DBZ Addiction

2010-09-11T09:18:00.001-07:00

I once walked the flooded waters of Pasig City with my then buddy Chameng Oliva during a dreadful typhoon signal #3 named Katrina.

Why would I be doing a crazy thing like that? It's all because of my addiction to Dragon Ball Z.

I was 14-15 then. While all other girls were busy lookin' pretty and talking about boys, I was with Chameng... eating breathing living DBZ. My mom actually tried to make me realize this before. I remember her exact words. "What's wrong with you!? The other girls are having boyfriends and you... you turned your new room into a Dragon Ball Z museum!"

Yes... I did.

I had everything. Posters, trading cards, action figures... chibi action figures, VHS tapes. O_O I was hooked. So hooked that my crush then was Vegeta instead of whoever was the popular celebrity that time. Obviously I didn't know because I wasn't paying attention.

Ahh~ Those were good times. Good times indeed.

Anyway, how was my mom able to end this? One time, I slept over at my friend's house. When I got home, I saw the neighborhood children running around with DBZ toys and other stuff of mine. I panicked. The moment I saw the torn posters off my wall, I felt betrayed. There goes my childhood. Stolen away from me. O_O Goodbye 3,000 peso Broly doll... Goodbye rare card collection...

My mom surely knew how to make a point when you "ruin" your new room in her newly built house. Dang was that painful. Oh well. What's done is done.

I said goodbye to DBZ and hello to sex drugs and rock & roll!!!

Just kidding. >_<

I've fallen in love. O_O

2010-08-15T06:29:00.000-07:00

Yeap. You read that right. I am honestly and seriously in love.

Just got back in Makati a few hours ago and here I am in front of the computer, can't sleep, di mapalagay, thinking... infected by the Love Bug. Corny. -_-

I love Corinne Bailey Rae. Her style is OSM and her voice is so cool. I prefer to sound like her than Beyonce. Luckily I can sound like both of them. (Yabang moment!)

The song suits me well. It's late and I can't sleep. O_O I've always had this facade about hating love. I know I am capable of living without a man but I guess it all changes when you finally meet someone you'd actually wanna be with.

It's only been 2.5 months but it feels like I've been with Noli for a year or more already. He's the nicest guy. Treats me well. Always asks me what I want even when I insist on following what he wants. Sure he ain't perfect but I don't really care. To me he is. Isn't love grand? :D

This is my jam~!

Love is OSM.

Friends! I call upon you all! Call me! Text me! Leave a comment! Tell me how happy you are for me! :D

I'm super happy. Good vibes to all~!

Mark 11:24
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

A Tribute To My First Love

2010-08-11T03:08:00.000-07:00

Nuff said. :)

Extra Mile

2010-07-26T05:02:00.000-07:00

"There are no traffic jams along the extra mile."
- ROGER STAUBACH

I will work harder.

I will save more.

I will smile more.

I will have more focus at church duties.

I will open myself to more new friends.

I will have more time for old friends.

I will love those who love me some more and spend more time with them.

Just thinking about all this makes me tired. It really does. -_-

I LOL'd

2010-07-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

Dave Days' parody of Justin Bieber's "Baby" featuring Tay Zonday

And the original video of Bieber Fever:

Wow! I'm really blogging!

2010-07-10T07:05:00.000-07:00

Makati

Can't seem to stop talking about Makati. Living in Makati is awesome. I cross the street and I'm at church. I walk a bit more and I'm in Rockwell. If I turn right I'd be in A.Venue. A few steps more and it's the office. Just a few more and it's Greenbelt. Everything seems so accessible. This is truly "centro de civilizacion". Hahaha~! I love it.

I'm never late. Never for church, never for work. Absolutely awesome. I mean, I finally have no more reasons for being late. The only way I'd be late is if I'm stupid enough to wake up late. Other than that, nothing. Crap!!!

Diet

Lost another pound. But it ain't enough. So I'm going back to my secret diet once more. This time it's for realz. Imma lose some more and I'll be sexeh~ LOL. I don't get it why I have to do this but somebody just said I should. I guess this time the request counts if it comes from your boyfriend huh? Damn it.

Videoke

I'm dying to go out and sing. Been so quiet at work so I think my birit skillz is on Level 10 right now. Ugh. Maybe tomorrow after church. Hehe~

Old Friends

Saw Dio (Aringard of Dragoons) today. Brought me some of the good stuff to help me lose weight.

Saw Allen Sy (Masamune Rai) in SM Supermarket today. He looked super sleepy. Just as I always remembered him.

Indian Mangoes

Bought Indian Mangoes the other day. Went to work and found out it's Apple Mango. I got scammed. Damn it. I hate Apple Mangoes. Luckily, Jonathan likes it. So it didn't go to waste after all.

Cockroaches

They still have a plan to assassinate me. That's why it's so scary to walk in dark alleys alone at night. They run after me. I'm not crazy. My mother had me tested. And besides, I already have a witness with this happening. The Tora-tora Cockroaches even fly and tries to land on me like I'm some kind of super-carrier. Damn it. Oh! And what I really hate the most is the Tiger Cockroach. It's the hard shelled one with stripes. It bites your eye or arm while you sleep then you end up going to school swollen. Ugh.

Cleaning

I've been cleaning non-stop lately. I used to frequent the groceries for food but lately, I've been buying cleaning stuff. I have them all now. Cleansers, brushes, rugs, mold and mildew remover, brooms... Funny thing is... I never really liked cleaning before. I mean... I never cleaned before. But now, I've discovered the zen of cleaning. I find joy in cleaning. I look forward to scrubbing my toilet. What the hell is wrong with me!?!?! Why did my yaya leave me!?!?!

Thoughts of the Week

2010-07-03T07:20:00.000-07:00

NBI Hit
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Have you ever gotten a "Hit" when trying to get your NBI clearance? Well I have... twice. And most honestly, I totally don't get it. How many people in this country have a name "Consolacion Francisco Merano" anyway? How in the freakin' way is my name in any way common? Can anybody please tell me if you know anyone with the same name as me?

Did I just say what my real name is? Crud.

Plus, I'm supposed to get my clearance last 24th. But I got so busy I couldn't get myself to ride that train and get it from Monumento. Yeap. It's now in Monumento. Found out the hard way. Went to Carriedo in Quiapo. They told me to go to Divisoria and when I got there, they told me it's already in Monumento. I was like WTH!!! NBI needs a freakin' CM! They should get their info out there for cryin' out loud! Hahahaha!

Krispy Kreme
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The original glazed has 200 calories, 110 of those calories are from fat. It has 12 grams of fat, 3 grams of saturated fat and 22 grams of carbohydrates. This is probably their lowest fat, lowest carb donut. It is a puff of air. Some of the frosted cake donuts were higher of course. No I didn't eat one today. But I was thinking it.

Whoever left that Krispy Kreme box in the pantry... Damn you! o/ Fight the power!!!

Makati Traffic is Awesome!
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How long does it take to ride a cab from my place to Ayala? 45 minutes.

How long does it take if I walk instead? 30 minutes.

Therefore, walking is the better choice. It's faster and you burn calories along the way.

New Life
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I'm really happy with the developments of my life. A new environment at home, church and at work, and a new culture really is what I need. It's the absolute life make over. Letting go of my previous life is the best decision I ever made. Some people may think that it's a form of quitting but I'm glad I took this step. I have learned that... sometimes, letting go is the only way to win.

Sound of Freedom

2010-05-27T22:07:00.000-07:00

Everybody's free (Got to be free now)
Feel Good (Sing it) (Got to feel good about you girl)
Everybody's free (Rastaman woo yeah) (Got to be, Got to be, Got to be free)
(Squeeze) This is the sound of freedom

Time to get down the dancefloor
Come on let ya self go
Sweat till you can't sweat no more
Oh girl if you reach i'll give you ___
When I go down them to the floor
DJ! Gimme some more
Tonight me comfi ___ I'm not leaving till the party is done

Everybody's free (Everybody's got to be free yeah)
Feel good (Did you hear that) (This is the sound of freedom)
Everybody's free (Everybody's got to be free yeah)
Feel Good (___) (This is the sound of freedom)

Jump up girl, move your body to the left
Jump up, move your body to the right
Nobody can stop you tonight
No gall no sweet like you tonight
Every man have their eyes on you
Gall your coming home with me tonight, right
You better believe about that
Dollarman will do you right

Everybody's free (Everybody's got to be free yeah)
Feel good (Did you hear that) (This is the sound of freedom)
Everybody's free (___ songs of freedom) (Everybody's got to be free yeah)
Feel Good (Feel Free) (This is the sound of freedom)

Everybody's free (Everybody's got to be free yeah)
Feel Good (___) (This is the sound of freedom) (Sounds of freedom)
Everybody's free (Everybody's got to be free yeah)
(This is the sound of freedom)

Don't care what people say
Free yourself, let yourself go
Sweat music is playin'
Free yourself, let yourself go
Release that stress
Free yourself, let yourself go
Yeah, listen up people
Everybody gotta be, be yourself, be yourself now
You got to live your live free yeah
Don't worry 'bout a thing, just be yourself yeah
Everybody's got to be free

Everybody's free (Everybody's got to be free yeah)
Feel Good (This is the sound of freedom)(Sounds of freedom)
Everybody's free (Everybody's got to be free yeah) (Come on)
(This is the sound of freedom)

House & Lot For Sale

2010-05-12T01:11:00.000-07:00

This is the front view of the house. It's on a corner lot.

Closer view of the front of the house.

This is the entrance to the laundry area which is connected to the kitchen as well.

View of the tiled porch once you enter the inner gate before the front door.

View from the porch.

Living room/area

Flooring. Those are my feet. LOL.

The kitchen. The Toilet and Bath is beside the kitchen. Sorry I didn't clean and just took pictures.

View from the kitchen window. You're so close to nature. I still see fireflies at night sometimes.

Stairs going up.

2nd floor has no division for rooms. Just one attic-style open space. The windows can be opened. I just didn't bother. -_-

Bed and closet comes with the house.

The neighborhood is pretty nice. Quiet with the occasional sound of tricycles and private cars passing by.

Specs?: 2-storey House on a 70 sqm corner lot.
Location?: Madrigal Village, Brgy. Pantok, Binangonan, Rizal, Philippines
Accessibility?: One trike ride to Highway. Highway has Jeepney and FX rides to Megamall, Robinson's Galleria, Crossing.
Electricity?: Yes.
Water?: Yes.
Phone lines?: Possible. But not available right now. Nobody lives in this house.
Parking?: Available.
Roads?: Concrete.
Flood?: Never.
Closest Landmarks?: Saint Monique Valais and Vicente Madrigal National Highschool
Title?: Tax Declaration (Nobody has a title in that area. Everyone's on TaxDec.)
Price?: PhP 500,000.00

If you like the quiet provincial atmosphere, nice neighbors, that kind of stuff... without being too far from civilization and its amenities, this house is for you. ^_^

Secret Diet

2010-05-02T19:38:00.000-07:00

Been staring at my weighing scale for the past week and I couldn't believe my eyes. I weighed myself at the gym too but it only showed me the same result.

It all started when Dio, a friend and guild master of Dragoons, told me that he has something to show me. Much to my surprise, he lost almost half of his body weight. The last time I saw him was during Paul and Sheila Mendoza's wedding and he was huge. He told me his secret and I went on and tried it for 10 days. As directed, I didn't change my eating habits nor my sit-all-day gamer lifestyle. All that and I still lost:

5 lbs overall weight
1 cm from my chest (Is that even right?)
.5 cm from my upper arms
3 cm from my waist
3 cm from my lower rib
3 cm from my hips
and 1 cm from my ankles

All of this without changing my diet and lifestyle. Same cups of rice, same greasy food, same softdrinks intake. I was amazed and decided to try it for another 30 days.

What is this secret? Lemme see what happens in 30 more days. If I reach my short-term weight goal, I'll let everybody know what it is. :P

Weight lost from the time I entered e-Games: 16.5 lbs. And counting...

Big Girl (You are Beautiful)

2010-04-19T19:00:00.000-07:00

Walks in to the room
Feels like a big balloon
I said, 'Hey girls you are beautiful'
Diet coke and a pizza please
Diet coke I'm on my knees
Screaming 'Big girl you are beautiful'

You take your skinny girls
Feel like I'm gonna die
Cos a real woman
Needs a real man is why

You take your girl
And multiply her by four
Now a whole lotta woman
Needs a whole lot more

Get yourself to the Butterfly Lounge
Find yourself a big lady
Big boy come on around
And they'll be calling you baby

No need to fantasise
Since I was in my braces
A watering hole
With the girls around
And curves in all the right places

Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful

Walks in to the room
Feels like a big balloon
I said, 'Hey girls you are beautiful'
Diet coke and a pizza please
Diet coke I'm on my knees
Screaming 'Big girl you are beautiful'

You take your girl
And multiply her by four
Now a whole lotta woman
Needs a whole lot more

Get yourself to the Butterfly Lounge
Find yourself a big lady
Big boy come on around
And they'll be calling you baby

No need to fantasise
Since I was in my braces
A watering hole
With the girls around
And curves in all the right places

Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful

Get yourself to the Butterfly Lounge
Find yourself a big lady
Big boy come on around
And they'll be calling you baby

No need to fantasise
Since I was in my braces
A watering hole
With the girls around
And curves in all the right places

Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Oh you are beautiful

Get yourself to the Butterfly Lounge
Find yourself a big lady
Big boy come on around
And they'll be calling you baby

No need to fantasise
Since I was in my braces
A watering hole
With the girls around
And curves in all the right places

Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Oh you are beautiful

Get yourself to the Butterfly Lounge
Find yourself a big lady
Big boy come on around
And they'll be calling you baby

No need to fantasise
Since I was in my braces
A watering hole
With the girls around
And curves in all the right places

Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girls you are beautiful
Big girl you are beautiful

I'm in love with a Japanese guy

2010-03-18T10:00:00.000-07:00

I'm not sure if you remember this, but when I was a little girl, I fell in love with a Japanese man.

Now, I think it's happening again. And it's all because of Matsumoto Jun.

I keep seeing him in Japanese dramas and movies but I honestly never liked him then. And I'm not sure either why I super love him now.

He even had weird roles like a twin brother who's incestuously in love with his twin sister. Yuck da ba? His features are quite common if you'll compare him to Filipino men too. I can even point out a lot of Filipinos who are way way hotter and some I know from my own neighborhood who probably look a little bit like him. However, I couldn't. They just won't cut it because they're not him.

Haha! I'm so gaga over this guy. I wonder how long this giddy feeling will last.

He's so just awesome!!! Can you seriously tell me that Justin Timberlake can do this stunt? Guts and core strength is above average. Check this video out.

Check these out too!
1. Kimi wa Petto
2. Hana Yori Dango
3. Bambino
4. Saigo no Yakusoku

And this too! He has a boyband called Arashi too. O_O

Now I suddenly prefer Pepsi over Coke or Mountain Dew!

It's been a week now and I still can't sleep well. What the hell...

I'm going boxing this weekend. I'm suddenly inspired. Will imagine my trainer looking like this. LOL.

I love this hair. O_O He's so sexy.

愛してる, 松本潤! *faints*

The Woman Who Still Wants to Marry

2010-03-13T07:10:00.000-08:00

This is about the misadventures of 3 single women who are already in their 30s. All of them are successful in their chosen careers and unlucky with love.

The story however focuses more on Lee Shin Young, a reporter, who, on the 3rd episode, finally saw herself being chased by 3 men. Kim Bum in this drama plays an indie band leader/music genius who is one of those 3 men. He's 12 years younger than the lead character which makes the scenario funny yet charming. The other two guys running after her are her pilot ex-boyfriend who dumped her years back for pursuing her career and a doctor who happens to be Kim Bum's character's Hyung.

There was a scene with one of the supporting female characters - the translator, who was standing on a bridge shouting at the river. She was crying and apologizing for being too successful in her career. In this story, it is clear that men don't like old and over achieving women. Even though I'm not yet as old as the characters in this drama, it hit me hard. Watching it is like seeing my life on screen. Or my life 4 years from now.

I'm currently being threatened by the society I'm in because of my age. People are pressuring me to get married. Men are also very disappointing at this point. Either they're already happily(or not) married, or absolutely not worth my attention.

Kim Bum's character seems interesting though. Maybe I should start looking at younger men? Pull a Demi/Cameron on them? LOL. Must start being sexy.

Happy Holy Supper Weekend!

2010-03-12T17:35:00.000-08:00

Let's keep our souls squeaky clean!

Somebody to Love

2010-03-05T18:48:00.000-08:00

Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Each morning I get up I die a little
Can't barely stand on my feet.
Take a look in the mirror and cry, Lord, what ya doing to me.
I've spent all my years believing in you, but I just can't get no relief.
Lord, somebody, somebody, can anybody find me, somebody to love.

Got no feel I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm okay I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
One day I'm gonna be free
Lord somebody
Somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love

(She works hard) Everyday
I try and I try and I try
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm going crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I've got nobody left to believe
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah...

(Find her somebody to love x6)
(Can anybody find me)

Somebody To Love

(Find me somebody to love x4)

Finding balance in a gamer lifestyle

2010-02-21T04:51:00.000-08:00

Found this video by Cirrus Epix over YouTube.

He's right. He also made me realize that most of what he said in the last parts of the animation is what I've written as description of this blog of mine - right below the title. So yeah... I agree with him.

Proud to be Pinoy yet again

2010-02-20T20:43:00.000-08:00

Last night, as I wait for my turn for a foot spa in a local parlor in our barangay here in Manila, I saw the true life story of Mr. Efren Peneflorida in MMK or Maala-ala mo kaya - a TV show that features the lives of people who have done inspirational things or have won over their life trials.

I've heard about Efren and his volunteer work to educate children from the slums of Cavite. A friend of mine forwarded a link going to the voting page of CNN. I became one of the 2.5 million voters and the majority of those who voted for Efren.

His work is already amazing on its own. Watching the MMK episode made me realize that there is something more to that. That Efren himself was poor and deprived but he struggled and succeeded the fight against poverty. He graduated from college twice. Both as a Cum Laude. And he chose to do this volunteer work instead of teaching in a high-paying private school so he can help his own family. I wasn't able to see how the story ended but I can pretty much just connect the dots and assume that his family understood his purpose and are now very proud of him. I know I am. And I'm not even in any way related to him. I just happened to be just another Filipino.

Thank you, Efren. Your whole life is inspirational.

Another pro bono VO gig

2010-02-12T06:38:00.000-08:00

Woooo! Boses ko to! Na naman! Hehe... The others are Emir, JM and Allison. :)

Validation

2010-01-23T07:57:00.000-08:00

David, a friend who is also a gamer, has given me a link to this video after I posted in Plurk "Ching is tired. I really hope I step on some compliment-fuel soon before my tank goes empty." The video made me smile.

I'm the type of person who needs validation. The more compliments I get, the harder I work. The better my decisions become.

I'm a WYSIWYG person. What You See Is What You Get. And to make it better, I'm honest, I love people, I'm cheerful and decent. I really thought that no one could possibly hate me now.

Unfortunately, there are still some who are out there to get you. Even if you stay away from their path as much as you can. For some weird reason, they'll still see you, target you, and they will try to ruin your day... or worse, your life. The sadder part is, they don't see it that way. They just think what they do is fun.

This makes my heart hurt. It truly makes me sad. But of course, I have God. Tonight, I shall pray that He surrounds me with His love and protection. That if I did anything wrong and I am misunderstanding things, I pray that He clears my mind and humbles my heart that I may choose the right decision when dealing with things.

I am sure I will get through this and learn from this. I will be smarter and stronger and I will be safe from harm.

I work hard, I am decent, I have integrity. Not because I wanna be plastic. Nor do I gain material things from it. I do all these because this is how God wants me to be. And I obey Him because I love Him.

That is the point of all of this anyway. I love God. And I shall not falter.

Love & Marriage

2010-01-17T07:06:00.001-08:00

I've just finished watching Love Marriage. It's a Korean romantic-comedy series starring Kim Ji Hoon and Kim Min Hee. I honestly do not know who they are until I saw the series but the story and dialogue really moved me.

The story is about a female and single Match Maker, and a male divorced Divorce Lawyer. Came from absolutely different worlds but met up due to some common situations and ended up falling in love with each other.

Of course I loved the lead actor Kim Ji Hoon. He has a really handsome face. The spiky lawyer hair in the series suits his look. And I only have 2 words for this guy: "Super Hot."

However, aside from all the hotness, what really moved me is the lesson of the story. Marriage is not a joke and should be taken with utmost caution. Relationships should be taken slowly.

And you know when people say that love never change? Now I completely disagree with that. There was a scene when Kim Ji Hoo's character said that "Love changes. People don't. Sometimes, out of fear of being alone, we accept someone for who they are because we love them so much. But deep inside, we aim to change that person in order to fit our needs. But in the end, that person never changes anyway. This is why some people divorce or separate. Then they blame it on people. But people do not change. Love does."

Those lines made a quick flash of faces of my exes right before my eyes.

And with this learning, I promise myself that I:

1. Will take things slowly
2. Listen to my partner (whoever it will be) with my heart
3. Be nice to my exes
4. Never again settle for less
5. Never marry unless I am truly in love
6. Never assume
7. Never be paranoid
8. Never nag

Thank You, God.

2009-12-19T06:45:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow’s one of our big days. Our church celebrates our year-end thanksgiving across the Philippines and the whole world.

When I was a kid, my mom used to buy me new clothes and shoes during thanksgiving. She says that this day is when we thank God for all the blessings and guidance we’ve received throughout the year and since we’re facing God, we have to look our best. I never forgot that.

This year, I won’t be wearing any new clothes or shoes. But what I will wear is something even more special - my secretariat uniform. Gone are the days when I only faced God with beautiful clothes. Now, I face Him with servitude. And this part of me will last till the day I die… or the end of the world… whichever comes first. :D

Now, since I’m such a proud Christian, let me enumerate to the whole world (through the internet) what I am thanking God for this year.

I thank God for:

1. Keeping me alive and well. Not letting me get severely sick or die.
2. Keeping me safe when I travel because I sorta travel a lot because of work.
3. Keeping me away from bad people. And when I say ‘bad’, I mean all levels. From petty thieves to super villains!
4. Letting me see my BFF Jobert again and see Hong Kong. Ocean Park and Disneyland are my childhood dreams come true!
5. My job. I love my job. E-Games is such a wonderful company that cares about my career, my well-being and my spiritual health. Never heard my bosses oppose when I have to go to church. I honestly prayed for this job and God gave this to me and it’s perfect! And I’m very very thankful it.
6. Giving me a home and a family (my tita and cousins) when I needed one.
7. New friends. I met new ones when I moved to Sikatuna and Sampaloc and they’re really cool. There’s Lance (my Jobert in MME) and Janno (my Jobert in MMN) just to name the two most special ones. Also got Ralph, Allen, Alvin, Jun, Jun, Arlene, Apple, Ayzhel, Angela… so many to mention.
8. Not letting our house be touched by Ondoy. I honestly didn’t feel how bad it was until I saw our neighbors.
9. Keeping my brothers and their families safe during the typhoons.
10. My new offices in church. Aside from being secretary, I’m now P-13 in finance and purok leader for the Kadiwa organization.
11. Letting me stay as an INC member and have every right to praise His holy name.

Overall, life is better this year. No illnesses, no financial problems, no heartaches. It’s true, you know? When you follow everything He says, life will be perfect. Like a piece of heaven on earth.

Thank You, God.

formspring.me

2009-12-13T04:43:00.001-08:00

If you had access to a time machine, where and when would be the first place you travel to?

Punta, Manila. 1914. Wanna meet someone special. Maybe even offer to give him a hand with something.

Ask me anything

30th Birthday @ HongKong

2009-12-08T07:45:00.000-08:00

My BFF Jobert sent me an early birthday gift last June. It also gave me so much time to apply for a 3-day leave in advance that even though my birthday is once again hit by a major company event, I had no choice but to push through with my vacation. Such a splendid idea.

I left Manila on November 27, Friday. I packed like as if I'm just doing a sleepover at a friend's house. Well, it's somehow like that. The only difference is I needed to fly for 2 hours to get there.

I'll let the pictures tell the story. :)

At the airport waiting for boarding

Hong Kong airport upon arrival

First meal in HK

Happy to see my BFF Jobert again

In HK's subway

Jobert @ Admiralty

Outside Ocean Park

Royal Flamingos

Japan! Japan! Haha!

I love hats!

Escalators there are really sumthin'

Chains. So S&M no?

Phonebooth. Was going for the clark kent to superman transformation but I guess it didn't work out

More escalators! Wasn't able to take pics of the ones in Mid-Levels. It's the longest in the world.

Japan! Japan! in HK LOL

Dugie and Jobert

Dugie and me

Jobert watching the dugies

Panda rar~

Ocean parks rides. I'm not into rides. LOL. Motion sickness ruins my day.

Dolphin show!

Dugie show!

I found Nemo! And his relatives.

Seahorses. They look dead but they were moving when I took this pic

Weedly water dragonicaaaaaa~

I don't know what this is and I don't care but I took a pic because it's weird. Haha!

Eel thingies. I remember having these in my aquarium when I was a kid

That's a big fugleh fishy. Really fugleh.

Me in a cable car

Weeeee~

Pandas!

An An. He's born in 1986. Really cute but I can't hug him because there's a giant glass wall that separates him from the people

My Birthday Song

2009-11-26T02:34:00.001-08:00

30's the new 20 nigga I'm so hot still
better broad better au-to-mo-bile
bet a yard, nah bet a hundred mill
then by the songs end I probably start another trend
I know everything you wan do
I did all that by the age of 21
by 22 I had that brand new Ack Coupe
I guess you can say that my legend just begun
I'm, young enough to know the right car to buy yet grown enough not to put rims on it
I got that six-duce with curtains so you can't see me and I didn't even have to put tints on it
I don't got the bright watch I got the right watch
I don't buy out the bar, I bought the night spot
I got the right stock
I ... got ... stockbrokers that's movin' it like white tops
I know you like fuck, this is child abuse
call D.Y.F.S.*, I might just be gettin' nicer
them young boys ain't ready for real
30's the new 20 niggia I'm so hot still

[Chorus]
I use to let my pants sag, not givin' a fuck
bae boy, now I'm all grown up
I use to cruise the used car lot, put chrome on the truck
bae boy, now I'm all grown up
I use to play the block like that (like that)
I use to carry knots like that (like that)
now I got black cards, good credit and such
bae boy, cause I'm all grown up

30's the new 20 nigga, I'm on fire still
these young boys is like a fire drills (uugh)
false alarms (uugh)
next don? (naah)
heen got- (on)
to the next one (Young)
I'm still here (yeah)
still here, like Mike gotta stop playin' with these children (yeah)
I'm a bully with the bucks
don't let the patten leather shoes fool you young'n, I got the fully in the tux
that was my past now I'm so grown up
I don't got one gun army, got a slum army
to hire a gun army, get you spun like laundry
and I'll be somewhere under palm trees calmly
listen to R&B when we get the call he's
no longer wit' us fire your babysitters
you lil' fucks fall back for real
30's the new 20 nigga, I'm so hot still

[Chorus]
I use to let my pants sag, not givin' a fuck
bae boy, now I'm all grown up
I use to cruise the used car lot, put chrome on the truck
bae boy, now I'm all grown up
I use to wear my hoodie like that (like that)
pile deep in the hoopty like that (like that)
now I got black cards, good credit and such
bae boy, cause I'm all grown up

Yall roll blunts, I smoke Cubans all day
yall young'ns chase, I'm Patron and it's straight
I like South Beach but I'm in San Tropez
yall drink Dom but not Rose' (hey)
your chick shop in the mall
my chick burnin' down Bergdorf's
comin' back with Birken Bags
your chick is like what type of purse is that?
I'm from the era where niggas don't snitch
you from the era where snitchin' is the shit
I'm afraid of the future (why?)
yall respect the one who got shot
I respect the shooter
yall go to parties to ice grill
I go to parties to party with nice girls
you young boys gotta chill
30's the new 20 nigga, I'm so hot still

[Chorus]
I use to let my pants sag, not givin' a fuck
bae boy, now I'm all grown up
I use to cruise the used car lot, put chrome on the truck
bae boy, now I'm all grown up
yeah we use to ball like that (like that)
Now we own the ball team, halla back (holla back)
now I got black cards, good credit and such
bae boy, cause I'm all grown up

Face to face with Runewaker

2009-10-08T08:43:00.000-07:00

This week, I have been lucky enough to be blessed with the presence of game developers – Tony and John Tang. Both of them are from Runewaker Entertainment – the genius behind Runes of Magic.

Their main reason for being in the Philippines is to train me, my GMs and the other vital departments in E-Games responsible for the operation of this game when it comes live throughout beta testing and commercial stage.

First, they explained some game features that we do not understand. One of which (just an example) is the Arcane Transmutator (not yet available in our alpha client but will be available in 2.0). This game feature reminds me of *ehem* (tabi tabi po because I’m about to mention other games here) the Horadric Cube of Diablo 2 and the *ehem ehem* (please don’t kill me, boss) the card system of Ragnarok Online. However… *ehem* Howeverrrrr~ it is not as simple as these mentioned games’ equipment augmentation system. It’s a little more complicated… but unique, special, and definitely worth your game time. I will no longer explain further about this feature because I’m not really talking about that right now. LOL.

Moving forward, they also showed us our super dooper ultra mega powerful GM Tool. I’m not allowed to show you how it looks like or tell you what it can do but please let me say… The Runes of Magic GM Tool is the best GM Tool I’ve seen in my entire gaming career.

We also, of course, in behalf of our beloved gaming community, asked more essential questions. We all know that cheaters are everywhere. And also, all popular games have hacks. And Runes of Magic is currently number 1 in Aurope right now so that alone makes this popular, right? We asked them… “What about duplicated items? Is Runes of Magic protected?”

Tony answered “We’ve already embedded a system check for that. Every time a gamer trades a duplicated item, each and every item has a unique serial code by the way, the system detects that and automatically deletes it from the player’s inventory.” I was amazed.

We continued to question him. “How about other cheats?”

Once again, he confidently answered. “Currently there was a reported cheat in US and Europe servers where players hover above ground at an abnormal height. They use this in order to easily find boss monsters. We also did a system check on this. When the server detects a gamer is hovering above normal ground distance, the server kills that player four times. It means he is PK’ed by the server as if he is being killed by a player for four times. He also suffers the consequences of being killed four times.” Ouch.

“That’s a good one. Do you think we can tell our players about this to warn them so they won’t cheat?” I asked.

Tony shrugged, smiled and answered. “Sure. Go ahead.”

This is just a gist of our little meet up. Of course we discussed more than that but I’m not sure I can still talk about it. Haha!

It is rare for me to actually compliment a developer (or a GM Tool of a game). I have been in this industry for as long as MMORPGs are in the Philippines and worked with different game developers here and abroad. I won’t say I’ve met them all but I am confident I have met a lot of them enough to have a concrete idea of which is a good, promising developer versus the annoying, uncooperative one.

As a GM, this game is so good I want to manage it. As a gamer, this game is so awesome that I’m gonna play it and even push my friends to play it with me. It is rare for me to actually recommend a game. Take my word for it. Play this game. Feel the difference.

Why taller men?

2009-09-25T01:25:00.000-07:00

I get this question a lot.

Being taller than me is the only requirement (aside from being an INC member) that I usually expect from any boyfriend-wannabe. Physical features, education, social status, intelligence usually are just way below the list.

If you look at couples everywhere, you'll see that most men are taller than their women. This is NOT A COINCIDENCE. Most women do really prefer taller men according to research. This is common.

Popular reasons would be:
(1) taller men may be able to provide more protection to its offspring.
(2) greater genetic qualities to pass on to their future children
(3) height is an indicator of good evolutionary success, researchers found that taller men were more likely to have at least one biological child compared to shorter men (Pawlowski, Dunbar, & Lipowicz, 2000)

Aside from the fact that I don't wanna look like a huge freak when I'm with my man, nor do I wanna be the "talk" of the neighborhood every time I walk the streets with my man, (4) taller men give me the impression that they're better than me. I need to be with a man I can respect. I know it's just psychological but I definitely I think I really would never go for a shorter guy.

I'm not being a snob. I'm not being picky. I'm just being a normal woman. This is me trying to justify myself. LOL.

Wag nang magalit. Panoorin mo nalang si Chuckie ng KFC at Jollibee mag B-Boy battle in the tune of Nobody. LOL.

I did it!!!

2009-09-17T06:19:00.000-07:00

I finally did it!

I sent my ex-fiance a message in Friendster telling him that I forgive him. I even apologized for taking me 1 year and 5 months before being able to do it. I complimented his new wife. She is very pretty. And I wished him a good life.

I’M FINALLY FREE! Free from hatred, free from sin, free from guilt! I’m finally able to let go and it feels so good!

*sighs in relief*

God is good. I’m so thankful for the lessons in church today. It totally woke me up.

Mas mahal mo ba ang DoTA? - I LOL'd

2009-09-17T01:59:00.000-07:00

Chorus:
bakit ba ganyan mas mahal mo pa ang dota
gabi gabi pagtulog ko ay kayakap lang kita
paggising sa umagay tinakasan mo na
tapatin mo nga ako
mas mahal mo ba ang pagdodota mo

Pag gising sa umaga almusal ko na ay dota
Kahit wala nang pera ay handa akong gumyera
Umaasa na akoy makaisa
Ikaw ay pumusta dudurugin ang kalaban
4on4 or 5on5 that sh*t will never matter you will lose motherf*cker Im a farmer
and Im a killer
good game ka na bumawi na lang bukas

Repeat Chorus

isa dalawa tatlo magpupush mirana ko
hindi mapipigilan nakamanta na ako
pumapana, sapul ka nanaman , t*ng*na ka patay ka nanaman b*tch!
hinahabol may leap yan boi hindi maabutan kahit faceless void
tumi-tp na asa ka pa again t*ng*na ka babalikan kita

Repeat Chorus

hindi kailangang magselos pa
hindi naman kita pagpapalit sa dota
anu bang ligaya ang dulot nyan
wala ka nang pakealam
matulog ka na lang

Repeat Chorus

props to: dinocornel

Politicians in our Temple

2009-09-02T20:43:00.000-07:00

I went to Ka Erdy's wake last night with my friend/sister - Emz. I wasn't able to go on the first day due to earthly reasons I'm not very proud of so I really pushed myself to go there last night.

I was expecting that it was going to be a long night because my friends who went there last Tuesday were in line for 12 hours before they could see Ka Erdy. Some even didn't make the cut off and went home empty handed. Luckily, the second day was more organized and I got to see him after only 3 hours.

Kudos to our brothers and sisters who helped out in making the wake very organized and less stressful to visitors. There was a flow of free food and drinks while BEM boys tire their arms as they fan the visitors to keep us cool.

There were also huge screens facing Central Ave. and Commonwealth Ave. so people can see what's going on inside the temple. This is also on broadcast over GemNet and Gem TV. (Please see previous post for the live feed.)

While outside, I saw our country's President Gloria Arroyo come in. She spent about 20 minutes in the temple. After a few moments, our Vice President Noli De Castro also came in to pay his respects. Other politicians I saw were Senator Jamby Madrigal and Loren Legarda, and a couple of Governors from nearby provinces and members of the cabinet.

While I do not have any problems about them showing their respects to our beloved brother, there were some things that they did that made me realize that these politicians should've been briefed before letting them into the temple.

Some stood right smack at the front of Ka Erdy's casket and prayed. That's fine I guess.

Another senator (I need not mention her name) kissed the line thingie separating the casket from the viewing public (I don't know what that's called.) AND THAT IS WEIRD. It sorta reminds me of those Tagalog movies where devotees kiss their priests' robes or something. INCs never do that.

WHAT'S WORSE, more of them did the sign of the cross right in front of Ka Erdy. One of them even made it look like he was throwing the cross on Ka Erdy. The brethren inside the sanctuary, tabernacle, compound and surrounding the temple were in shock. You can here violent reactions saying "No way!", "Why'd she do that!?", "Is that the Governor of Nueva...!? How disrespectful!", "I can't believe they did that inside our temple. How rude!"

Ok ok... I'm sure they meant well(?). They didn't know that what they did was a bit insulting or even offensive. However, I doubt we'll be voting for these people anytime soon.

Kudos to President Gloria though. She's been very behaved and poised. With this, she just gained +10,000 ganda points from me.

Live from Central Temple

2009-09-01T23:23:00.001-07:00

I've embedded this here for my brothers and sisters who are not in Manila right now. I'm sure they want to see our brother Ka Erdie but they might not have any way of going here to see him.

Props to GemNet for the live broadcast.

And to Ka Erdie, see you in the Holy City very soon. :) Thanks for everything you've done for us. We love you very very much!

Do you want to date my avatar? - I LOL'd

2009-08-20T06:28:00.000-07:00

Do you wanna date my avatar
Do you wanna date my avatar

Hang with me in my MMO
So many places we can go
You'll never see my actual face
Our love, our love will be in virtual space

I'm craving to emote with you
So many animations i can do
Be anything you want me to be
C'mon, c'mon, share a potion with me

Do you wanna date my avatar
She's a star
And she's hotter than reality by far
Wanna date my avatar?

You can type commands
I've got slots for what i hold in my hands
Don't care what's in your character bank
How 'bout, how 'bout a little tank and spank

Grab your mouse and stroke the keys
Here in cyberspace there's no disease
Pick a time, send a tell to me
Just pay, just pay a small subscription fee

Do you wanna date my avatar
She's a star
And she's hotter than reality by far
Wanna date my avatar

Human
Looking for group
My stats so high
You'll be out of the loop

Got an uber leet staff
That you can equip
Close your mouth up
Ladies this is pure nerd

I'm a fiction based fantasy
A man so stoic
I hack and slash
Who the heck's more heroic

Check me out, cloth armor
Fits me like a glove
Just twitter a time
I'm ready for love

Hang with me in my MMO
So many places we can go
I'm better than a real world quest
You'll touch my +5 to Dexterity Vest

What role to you wanna play
I'm just a click away night or day
And if you think i'm not the one
Log off, log off and we'll be done

Do you wanna date my avatar (x2)
She's a star
And she's hotter than reality by far
Wanna date my avatar

Do you wanna date my avatar (do you wanna date my avatar) (x4)

E-Games CM Team Day Out

2009-08-11T10:57:00.000-07:00

The long awaited sorta-kinda-something-like-an-outing day has finally arrived!

Me and my team couldn't really leave work for more than a day so our best option for team building is to have fun while staying within Makati City.

Right after our usual Tuesday meeting, we logged off our PCs and headed to Glorietta 4.

We played in Timezone until it's time to watch GI Joe. The movie's nice. The GMs and CMs were pretty noisy in the cinema. But I wasn't surprised at all. LOL

They also love getting their pictures taken. It's a fun bunch. What do you expect in a department filled with extroverts anyway? LOL

After the movies, we went to Center Stage Jupiter for some ROCKeOKE!

Videos!!!

This is GM Vrael with Narda. Check out the performance level. You gotta admire that.

This is GM Paps and GM Dude with Chikinini.

This is GM Cerberus with Always be my Baby. His most hated song ever. No kidding.

And GM Raven and GM Vrael with Prinsesa.

Wanna see the CMs sing? Here you go.

This is CM Sefie of Audition and CM Charms of Cabal singing Akap.

This is our very first team building activity ever and I'm hoping to do this once every quarter to keep my GMs and CMs' stress level to a minimum and their teamwork intact. We're already in jobs we love to do. How hard can it be to love and work well with our colleagues? Not so hard at all.

Is it fun working for a gaming company?

San ka pa?

To God be the glory!

2009-07-28T04:03:00.000-07:00

It was on July 27, 1914 when my church, the Iglesia Ni Cristo (Church of Christ), was registered to the Philippine government as an independent religious organization.

Since its founding, 95 years ago, God has helped the church grow, prosper and showered it with blessings. From its humble beginnings, the Iglesia Ni Cristo is now being propagated in 90 countries and territories in the 6 inhabited continents of the world.

This is a picture of our Central Temple in QC. Took this pic with my phone. Pretty no?

This is how it looks like during the day time.

In the Philippines, a mammoth gathering of tens of thousands of brethren assembled on July 27, Monday, at 14 designated venues in each of the regions across the country to celebrate “IGLESIA NI CRISTO DAY.” which has been declared by our country's president as a special working holiday.

The 14 identified venues in the Philippines of Iglesia Ni Cristo Day are the following:

1. Araneta Coliseum, Cubao, Quezon City
2. Rizal Memorial Complex
3. Butuan City Sports Complex (Agusan del Norte)
4. Bicol University Sports Complex and Commencement Grounds (Legazpi City, Albay)
5. Cebu Sports Complex (Cebu City)
6. General Santos City Oval Plaza (SOCSARGEN)
7. Davao Agro-Industrial Institute Football Field (Davao City)
8. Quirino Stadium (Bantay, Ilocos Sur)
9. Central Integrated Terminal (Santiago City, Isabela)
10. Ashton Field Subdivision Grounds (Calamba, Laguna)
11. Panaad Stadium (Bacolod City, Negros Occidental)
12. Villa Del Sol Subdivision-Olongapo-Gapan Road (San Fernando City, Pampanga)
13. Narciso Ramos Sports Center (Lingayen, Pangasinan)
14. Ipil Sports Complex (Zamboanga City, Zamboanga-Sibugay)

Anniversary gatherings were also observed at Washington Convention Center in Washington D.C.; HP Pavilion in San Jose, California, USA; Central Hall Westminster in London, United Kingdom; Parco Esposizioni Novegro in Milan, Italy; and Hills Center in Sydney, Australia.

For those living in QC and nearby cities, we went to the Araneta Coliseum. Unfortunately, the big dome can only accommodate 12% of the INCs living in QC area. The 88% had to stay outside and that includes silly ol' me. Buti nalang, God has blessed us yesterday with a good weather. It was cloudy and there were a few drizzles. Just enough to prevent anyone outside the dome from having heatstroke. I love God!

I took this video with my phone. I've never seen so many people. Not to mention INC people. o_O

I was at the 75th anniversary when I was a kid. I think I was about 9 years old then and all I could remember were my aching feet. My yaya and I walked from QC circle to the temple and I know for a fact that THAT is FAR.

I'm glad that the 95th anniversary has been divided to other locations so people do not need to flock to QC anymore. Lalo na now that for sure mas marami na ang kapatid sa INC compared to 20 years ago. I'm sure that the Administration will never let what happened in 1989 happen again.I heard from old peeps that it was traffic madness.

Anyway, being the lucky girl, and with the help of my brother Ralph, I got inside the Dome.

Singing in the background was Lea Salonga. Below is a better video I got from YouTube. LOL.

Highlights:

Fireworks!!!

Got to hang out with my friends at Projects 2 & 3, MME for the last time. It really makes me sad that I'm leaving them soon. (I'm moving to Locale of Sampaloc on Saturday.)

I saw nanay Libay outside the dome. :) I missed her so.

I also saw Andrey Silva and got a picture with him.

If you don't know him, I posted a song he composed and sang more than a year ago in my blog. He's a really good singer and a very cute brother too. :P

He sang in the anniversary special too!

I would like to greet all my brothers and sisters in Christ a Happy 95th Anniversary! I hope that you enjoyed our special holiday as much as I did. I love you all! Mwaaaaaaaah! (Mangagbatian kayo ng banal na halik. Binabati kayo ng lahat ng mga Iglesia ni Cristo. Roma 16:16)

Red Weekend

2009-06-29T08:39:00.000-07:00

Have you ever heard of the saying "Women with red nails are up to no good"?

I decided to put this to the test so I colored my nails red and watched where I'm going to end up.

I MC'd at Paul and Sheila's wedding.

This is Paul. [Ex-GM Battlechaser] (Picture below) He's the Product Manager of Lineage 2 Southeast Asia. ^_^ We've been friends since 2003. Met him when we worked at Level Up!. We sorta formed the first community team evar with JM. [Ex-GM Huggybear] (See picture above. See the third guy from the left? That's JM.)

This is Sheila. (Picture below) She's my guildmate. True blood Shadowmaiden. How time flies. Before, we siege and protect castles together. Now, she's married. Awww~

I saw a lot of old friends at their wedding. Saw Quing there. [Ex(?)-GM Honeybee] We used to manage this other game a long time ago. XD

After the wedding, I passed by the office and got a call from my friends from Vietnam. Brian's back! So I hurried and went to Greenbelt 3 to meet them.

Ladies and gentlemen, these are my boyfriends. RC, Lukas, Brian, Jeh, Mik and Leslie.

Hot no? My Bechoy's boyfriend's there. This is Jeh~! Wabshu, Jeh~! Mwah!

I also just met this new boyfriend of mine. XD This is Leslie. Hehe!

I got tired and woke up with a freakin' headache but still got myself to fulfill my promise to watch Transformers 2 with my church friends.

I'm gonna be leaving them soon because I'm moving to Sampaloc on August 1. I will surely miss these guys. I've never felt so welcome in any locale before until I came to Projects 2&3. I feel sadder as the date of my transfer gets closer. I really wish I don't have to go. However, my tita's right. I need to be with family. I need to give this a shot.

Tiring weekend.

Online Game Addiction Symptoms

2009-06-22T21:15:00.000-07:00

This video was taken by the brother of a WoW gamer whose account subscription was cancelled by their mom.

EPIC.

I wouldn't say it's overacting. I honestly have seen something like this happen before. I've seen worse too. And I myself have felt something like this before as well. I was just really not as crazy as this guy.

LOL. Game addiction is WIN! \o/

Source: Alodia's Plurk

Working in E-Games is FUN FUN FUN! (Part 2)

2009-06-22T10:00:00.001-07:00

This weekend, I found myself having lunch in Tagaytay with our VP for MMOs - Ms. Heidi and VP for QA - Ms. Grace.

The others went ahead to Batangas and we just followed because we need to finish a few meetings in the morning.

On the way there, I was able to appreciate the beauty of the province. I was like... "Wow! Lots of trees!" We don't get to see much of that in Manila, you know.

Anyway, this is the house where we stayed.

Nice eh?

Pretty comfy inside too!

I think I slept for the longest time in months! The bed was so comfy I didn't wanna wake up. LOL.

I was also a little sick that time so my fever and cold medicine made me a little drowsy.

Anyway, I'd like to thank our pretty and sexy Marketing girls who cooked our food. So yummy!

Everyone really enjoyed the food.

There's a pool too so everyone went in for a swim.

T'was really fun! Look at Tars jump! XD

I also got dead drunk.

Just kidding! I don't drink beer. I'm allergic to barley and drinking is against my religion. LOL. I only drink green tea. LOL.

Aside from swimming, we were also able to hang out at the beautiful garden.

Spiderweb!

Swing!

I really liked the swing. I felt like a child again. Anyway, I always feel like a child in E-Games. Everyone's so young and having fun.

Question: What are these?

On the way home, everyone was super tired. LOL. But anyway, it was super worth it.

That aside, do you want to work for E-Games too?

I'm currently looking for 4 CGMs and 4 CMs. We're about to launch more titles soon so I need more people in our team. Haha! If you're interested, send me an email at headcmching@gmail.com, ne? ^_^

Ja~

I got flowers today!

2009-06-18T08:48:00.000-07:00

Went to work and saw this on my desk today.

I, of course, in respect to the one who gave it to me, placed it where I can see it as I work.

Thanks, brother. You totally made my day! ^_^

(Kahit na alaskado ako sa officemates, bosses and GMs ko. Haha! XD)

The Theme Song of MY LIFE!

2009-06-09T09:01:00.000-07:00

According to Facebook: I am the I-Live-Life-To-The-Fullest-And-I-Am-HAPPY type! I live life to the max, and I live each day like it's my last. I forget the rules and just go for it, and want to experience it all before it all disappears... My life is a book... and I'm writing it! Love it, make it, work it, and shape it... I make it how I want it to be!

Most of it is true. I live life to the fullest! I live my life like I'm about to die tomorrow. I do things that make me happy. I eat what I want. I try to love as many people and have as many friends as possible.

I'm not sure about forgetting the rules though. :P At least I don't do that anymore. I embrace the rules and let it guide me. I have finally learned being happy without going beyond the rules set before me. I finally realized that the rules were not imposed to restrain me but to protect me from being hurt.

Happiness is possible in any situation. Happiness is a choice. We can all live a happy and contented life if we choose it.

ZX Online's New Viral Video (LOL)

2009-06-03T03:20:00.000-07:00

This video is purely for promotional purposes only and is not intended to disrespect the Chinese community. Our bosses are Filipino-Chinese!

Starring:

Head CM Ching
GM Tsong
GM Vrael
CM Mei Yan
CM Aethrin
APM Toby

Visual Effects by Karwash

Video Edit by Tars and GM Persona

The not so distant FUTURE!

2009-06-02T21:02:00.000-07:00

Milo is a voice-and-motion-recognition game from Lionhead.

One of the big reveals at the Microsoft Press Briefing for E3 2009 was a video starring a little boy named Milo. Except it’s not a real boy (insert Pinnochio allusion here), Milo is a new artificial intelligence that will reside in your Xbox and supposedly change the face of gaming. Watch the video for yourself and see what you think.

Milo is supposed to use the new facial recognition and voice recognition powers of the Project Natal hardware Microsoft unveiled.

Wanna know more about Project Natal is? Watch this.

Introducing Project Natal, a revolutionary new way to play: no controller required. See a ball? Kick it, hit it, trap it or catch it. If you know how to move your hands, shake your hips or speak you and your friends can jump into the fun -- the only experience needed is life experience. (I like this tag line. LOL.)

Ang galing no?

Now imagine an MMORPG with this technology. Or Audition even... Or a dating/sex simulator(?) LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL! Hilarious!

Working in E-Games is FUN FUN FUN!

2009-06-02T08:31:00.000-07:00

It's time to Picture-Blog!

I'm too lazy to write a long article so I think this is better. Hehe.

Here goes...!

First Picture:

This is my messy office table. XD Chaotic inspiration. I get creative in the midst of chaos. :P

This is the view from my desk. I gots a BEEEEEG WEEEENDOW and I get a lot of sun in the mornings. Vitamin D!

These are my very funny officemates. APM Toby, me, Hope (not the GM Hope), APM Jane, Glenn and Tarce.

Meeting with Marketing and Product.

Meeting with X-Play gots FOOOOOD! Tong Yang Shabu-shabu!!! That bald guy is my boss - George. He's the VP of Casual Games. :D

This is Jane and Jason. We were on our way to Cebu.

My GMs - Gelo (GM Vrael) and Vinse (GM Raven). Very yaoi these two are...

Jason and Mitza wearing our uniform. This is also in Cebu during one of our events.

APM Jane, PM Lee, Ricci and Bea (CM Mei Yan)during one of our lunches in Glorietta 4.

Audistas. They love their game. :D

This one is during one of our events in Anonas. It was so hot out there and I'm so RED! Hahahaha!

Halloween 2008. APM Toby, CM Aethrin, PM Ivee, GM BoOM, CM Lowe, me, PM Pao, APM Jane, CM Mei Yan and PM Sonny. Can you guess who we're supposed to be?

Batangas. Planning session. me and APM Richard of Ran Online. We gots fancy wigs yo!

Audition Anniversary. Robinson's Manila. Too many people. XD

Baguio - Globe 24ever Gamefest. Me, Randy, Israel, Angel, Cherry and Dennis of Sales!

After work Drunkeoke last May 28. I only drank WATER because I'm INC and I'm KJ! :P Look! My new hairstyle!

And this... This is me. Happy at work! Wooo!

You have no idea...

2009-05-30T16:31:00.000-07:00

...that my heart melts at the very sight of you.
...that angels sing when you speak to me.
...that I can't sleep at night because I can't get you out of my head.
...that I feel an unfamiliar rush since I met you and it's driving me crazy.
...that you're such a constant image between thinking and breathing.
...that it's affecting me and I've been looking for some remedy to cure this feeling completely.
...that it's so painful when I think of the possibility that you'll never feel the same way about me.
...that I've never really felt like this before... with anybody.
...that I pray to God to give you the perfect girl who will love you and take care of you for the rest of your life... even if that girl is not me.
...that all I really want is to see you happy.

You have no idea... And I'd like to keep it that way.

Do I even deserve you? Who am I anyway?

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl?
Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever!

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
?Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
This crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away
Going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Emptying my Phone Memory

2009-05-27T22:44:00.000-07:00

I haven't blogged in a while. I'm actually pretty amused to see that I still get a lot of hits amidst that.

Work has been more fast-paced recently. I was moved from being Product Manager to being Head of Community Management of our company (E-Games and X-Play). It's definitely an honor and I wanted to make them feel that they made the right choice so I've been working extra hard. Thus, I haven't been blogging much. LOL.

As I look into my phone's memory, I saw some pretty nice pics I'd like to share. Maybe it can even tell the story about the time I was not able to blog.

Here goes...

This is when I went to the anniversary of our CWS venue in Salgado in Kamias QC.

The kids are so cute! And noisy... but cute! :)

Even the Kadiwas and Binhis were having fun.

A day before that, I went to Baguio with our pastor, his family and some sisters from Vietnam.

This is Ka Connie. She's now working as VP (Very Pretty) of Manulife. Just 3 buildings away from where I work. She's the one who found me when I was in Vietnam. She's back in Manila now too!

This is Ka Libay and her niece - Rean. She's also back and now she's in the Locale of Capitol in MME.

And of course I was wearing my fave yellow shoes! Ahahay! Ang taba ng binti ko! LOL!

The reason why we went to Vietnam is because a few days ago, I got a call from our pastor-Ka Raymund that he's back from Vietnam. We all wanted to see him so we had lunch near my office here in Ayala Ave. It's definitely the best time to get us all together.

In this picture are: Yen (GM Faith. I invited her to join us for lunch because I found out she's INC like me.), me, Ka Libay, Ka Raymund (our pastor in VN) and Ka Connie.

Jobert, if you're reading this, I'd like to tell you that we reserved a seat for you. :P

Sweet namen no?

--- MORE FROM CHURCH

This is my alternate BFF while Jobert is in HK - Lance. He's the pangulo of PNK @ Central. Busy driving kaya di nakatingin.

These are the Kadiwa peeps in Projects 2&3, MME:

My new... err... career? LOL

2009-05-07T07:11:00.000-07:00

Wooo! Boses ko 'to!

Watch nyo~!

Partida antok ako nyan. :P Napaki-usapan lang. LOL

It's Domination 3 and I'm INLOVE~~~!

2009-04-13T21:45:00.000-07:00

According to our registration thingamajig, there were 20,800+ people who came to Domination 3. At least this is true for those who got in. During the afternoon, some people got stuck outside because the venue went beyond capacity that they had to refuse entry. Poor gamers. Boohoo~! Hey who knows? Maybe next year will be a bigger venue perhaps? XD 4 Halls? (May maslalaki pa ba sa SMX?)

Domination 3 is finally over. Boohoo~! Why am I sad? Because it was so super dooper fun and it's over na! I met so many E-Gamers that day and they're oh so super awesome! Awww~

Good times! Good times! D3 was filled with so much fun for all E-Gamers! Especially to those who won the tournaments. The losers were very sport about it too. I didn't hear a single contestation during the tournaments. Whoa... That's a first for me. I guess that... in my 7th year in the gaming industry, I was already at that point where I keep expecting the worst that might happen. The good thing is, no bad thing happened. At all. Amazing!

The day started for me when the E-Gamergirls went on stage and invited people to join their club. They made this AVP about them and in the middle of it is a picture of me announcing to everyone that I am their mamasang (adviser). I am really proud of these girls.

After that, I went around the game booths - checking how my CGMs and CMs are doing. Asking the PMs if everything is ok. No problems were raised. Whew~ Sarap buhay~!

Around lunch time, I was called by the stage manager for the Globe event. I went on stage with our wacky hosts Ariel and Maverick for the "Win A Date With A GM" Contest. Super okray silang dalawa ha! Nalerker ako.

The event went OK pero super tagal matapos. Muntik pa ako maubusan ng questions. Grabe! Anyhoo~ In the end, may nanalo rin. Sila ang makakadate nila GM Asuerio and GM Medea next week. Courtesy of Globe. Lakas nila sa Globe, no? :P

I saw Xandra din during the morning. I used to work with her a long time ago when I was still a GM. *ehem* Moving forward... She's one of those who organized Alodia's Fans' Day. Which is also very successful by the way. Alodia is really popular talaga. She looks like a doll! She's pretty, smart, nice. Maganda na, mabait pa! San ka pa!? (Parang E-Games din no?)

Trivia: Do you know that Alodia and her sister Ashley were my guildmates a long time ago? Yes they were. :) And now you know. Haha!

The tournaments went well and I'd like to congratulate those na nag-uwi ng limpak-limpak (eh no?) na salapi! Pa-burger naman kayo~! Wooo! Burger! Burger!

And congrats din pala sa aking sexy na sexy na predecessor. Ang dating head ng Community na si Amethy! Regular gamer nalang sya now kaya puede nya na i-enjoy ang mag-cosplay~! Wooo! Nanalo sya ng Best Female Cosplayer for the E-Games Category.

Hmm ano pa ba? Tumugtog ang Paraluman and Hilera. Even Sandwich came. Tumugtog din sila shemps. They have songs kasi in O2Jam eh. Galing no? Ayos talaga si Raymund Marasigan. Ahh memories... You know... when I was 13 or 14, I used to go to concerts of Francis Magalona with my childhood friend - Vina Capco because front act nila ang Eraserheads. Di pa sila sikat that time. That was the time na papalabas palang yung song nila na Ligaya. I used to have a crush on their lead vocalist Ely Buendia. And to think I was only 13 no? Grabe! Tapos ayun sumikat na sila. As in super sikat! Until now kahit hiwa-hiwalay na sila, sikat pa rin sila.

May mga artista din na dumating from GMA. Vaness Del Moral, Ryza Cenon and Dominic Roco showed off their dancing skills. Galeng ha!

They went to Domination for a dance number and to promote SOP's Audition Celebrity Dance Battle Challenge. May segment na ang Audition sa SOP! Waaaaa! Sozyal~! It's supposed to start around May 10. During the show, magpapamudmod kami ng voucher codes sa screen. Alam nyo ba yun umaandar sa baba ng screen na usually headlines ng balita? Doon namin ilalagay ang voucher codes ng mga +10 weapons in Ran, Alien Pet sa Cabal at kung ano ano pang anek anek na rare! Kaya manood kayo ha!? Woooo!

Dami pang artistas and bands who came ha...

There's the Audition regular Dice & K9

Sexbomb was there too! Ayos yun sinayaw nila yung Single Ladies ni Beyonce. Kuhang-kuha yung moves! Gusto ko tuloy magpaturo grabeh!

Oh and did you see our surprise host? Woooo! Lucky! Guapo nya!

Pero teka... alam nyo ba kung ano ang highlight ng D3 para sa akin? Hmm... how do I begin... I was so busy giving donuts (na nakulimbat ko from the VIP area. sorry G!!! Gutom na kasi sila weh~) to E-Gamers nang may biglang humatak sa backpack ko. Pinapa-akyat daw nila ako sa stage? Vakhet? Kumanta daw ako. Shempre game ang lola nyo da vah? Kasama sa trabaho yan eh. Lalo na't nakatingin sa akin si Sir Ed (VP of Marketing) na syang pumirma ng kontrata ko. Aba eh game talaga ako dyan! So ayun... umakyat naman ang lola nyo ng stage.

To make things short(er), kumanta ako with Rivermaya.

Ahahay~ Ang guapo ni Jayson Fernandez!

Malambot din ang mga kamay nya at mabango ang hiningaaaaa~ Ouyezz!

Super trip na trip ko ang Rivermaya during Bamboo's time. That was... I think... 1996. Wahahaha! Kaka-graduate ko lang ng highschool non. Medyo di ko sila feel during Rico Blanco's time and whoever replaced Rico... o kung meron man because I wouldn't know. Balita ko may isa pa raw vocalist na pumalit when I was overseas eh.

Anyway, dahil guapo si Jayson Fernandez at mabango ang kanyang hininga, simula ngayon, love ko na ulit ang Rivermaya! Woooo! Haha! Baliw ko talaga. O eto yun video na nakuha ko sa naghihingalo kong mobile phone.

Grabe~ I'm inlove! O2mo, I love yououuu~! Wahahaha!

This is my first Domination ever and I'm very glad to be a part of it. Bonggang-bonggang bongbongasciously bongga talaga! I'm really happy to be an E-Gamer and I love my E-Games family!

Kaya ako? Pag tinanong ako kung "San pa ako"? Ang sagot ko: "Dito lang sa E-Games!" May mas masaya pa ba dito? :D

I Hate April Fool's Day

2009-03-31T21:15:00.000-07:00

I've tried a joke on Plurk today.

Ching *has* just come from the doctor. "Im pregnant."

People knew it was a joke right away so I deleted it.

Then I realized. I was just like that before. I used to think that people really play jokes at each other on April Fool's.

Exactly a year ago, April 1 2008, my fiance called me at 4:00 AM and told me that our wedding was off. It turned out it wasn't a joke.

Of all the days to tell me, he really had to pick April 1st.

Some of my friends still think he's an asshole. I think he's just in love. Unfortunately, not with me. And that means I had to go.

Life went on. It's been a year. How does this make me feel? I feel ok. A little numb perhaps? Still a little hurt. But I'm ok.

When you see me, greet me a "Happy Anniversary", will you? ^_^

Boys are like online games

2009-01-22T21:55:00.000-08:00

Boys are like online games.

Some got more content than others.

Boys you will enjoy being with, learn a lot of things from and brag your friends about.

Some are only visually delicious.

Good graphics. No content. Ditz.

Some are just inappropriately violent.

Stay away if you don’t like blood and gore. Especially on your face.

Some are rated T for Teen.

Young, wild and just pure fun.

Some are rated M for Mature.

Hmm… Sexy.

Some are rated A for Adult.

But are you that hardcore?

Some have compatibility issues.

That whatever you do, it just won’t work. And he’s right. It’s not you. It’s him.

Some have insanely technical problems.

Leave that to God, honey. Our GMs cannot fix that.

Some are Real Time Strategy (RTS) Games

They're very tiring. But quite enjoyable for those who like the challenge.

Some are Casual Games.

You like it, you play with it for a while, and then you drop it. Feel like playing again in a couple of days? He’ll still be there. Ready, waiting and very enjoyable until you get tired of it. Again.

Some are MMORPGs.

The one you devote a lot of time to. The one who wins your loyalty. The one you go crazy for. ♥♥♥ Your MMORPG boy. ♥♥♥

The Boyfriend Store

2009-01-14T09:22:00.000-08:00

Steph, one of my officemates, and I had this funny idea while eating fishball right outside our office building today.

At first, we were discussing this movie she watched when she was a kid about a little boy who wished he had a different mom. One morning, the boy woke up and he doesn't have a mom. A magical guy appeared and said he can choose his own mom from the "mom store". There are tons of varieties of moms there. The sporty mom, rich mom, sexy mom etc. But eventually, he realized that the mom he wants is his own mom. Sweet story.

Anyway, I said to her "Wouldn't it be fun if we can just buy the guy we like?". Of course, the initial reaction was "Don't some women already do that?" And I was like "No... not that one. What I mean is like a Stepford Wife of sorts."

Wouldn't it be fun to have a boyfriend store? When you feel like going home to someone, you can go online and order yourself a boyfriend. Let's say... for example... I wanna go hiking! I think I'll have an outdoorsy boyfriend! *CLICK* and then it gets delivered to your house and ready to take you way way up Mount Makiling.

Steph laughed and said "Yeah... That would be an investment."

And I continued "Yes. That's possible... Or it could even be like our in-game item mall. Boyfriends can be Indefinite/Permanent, be there for a year or two, for a month or just for seven days... Then expire." I laughed. "Then I can have a different boyfriend every week!"

I smiled, daydreaming... "Yes... I'd definitely invest on that... That's fun."

Cold and Rainy Days

2009-01-12T03:04:00.000-08:00

I'm honestly lovin' it. Let me count the ways...

1. It's so nice to be able to wear some of my wardrobe that were already stuck at the back of my closet with no hope of being used. Hoorah for that~!

2. I love umbrellas. Especially the way people look at me when I drip rainwater on their shoes when I'm in the train. One time, there was this lady who said "Hey! Watch it!" Then I said "Sorry ha? Umulan kasi eh. Eh nanghihinayang naman ako na iwanan yun payong ko sa GMA Kamuning Station. Wala na akong pambili ng payong pagdating ng Makati. 'Sencia na ha?" Hehe...

3. I hate sweat and I love airconditioning. With this weather, I can save money on electric bills! Woooo! Wait... Wala nga palang aircon dun sa bahay nila Ced... At least di ako papawisan. Hmmm... Must buy one of those ice-water chever cooling thingies for the summer. Magkano ba yun?

4. No sun means I can go out and socialize with my human lover... Ay! Di pala ako 'to. 'Sencia na... Twilight hangover. Meron pa rin eh. Woooo! Edward I love you! Wahahaha! Adik amp.

'Yan lang talaga actually. Haha! Masarap ang hindi pinapawisan. I hate the heat. That's prolly the reason why I don't wanna go to hell. LOL! I better be nicer.

About the picture: Taken at the 4th Floor of RCBC Podium right outside E-Games' office. Wearing my New York Hip trench coat, gray dress shirt, gray skirt, red necktie, black tights and my red plaid ankle-high Ed Hardy's. Woot~! Thanks to Stephie for taking this pic with her celphone. Hehe!

Brazilian Pain

2008-12-22T23:52:00.000-08:00

I've been looking for a spa that offers Brazilian waxing since I got back in Manila. Luckily, one of my office mates led me to a waxing salon near our office who specializes in this.

The salon was pretty nice, clean and had this very homey atmosphere. This and the chuckling, giggling and "Yawwww~!" sounds at the back of the curtains made me realize that I am definitely at the right place.

I went to the bathroom and washed and was led to this small room with a bed. Pretty different from the usual beds with leg-parting devices I was used to outside the Philippines. Other waxing salons got beds like the ones they use in hospital delivery rooms. Funny no? But I think having those beds are easier for the one waxing.

Anyway, so I was laying there, half naked and asked to part my legs and stuff. If you're used to seeing your Gynecologist, this is no biggie. These experts have seen far too many punanies for you to feel a bit shy about getting your Brazilian wax procedure.

Some people prefer asking for a shape. Some like inverted triangles, hearts or the famous landing strip. But since I had a different agenda on mind, I told "ate" to just take it all off instead.

The pain was amazingly terrible! If you're a masochist, you'd like this. Haha! Now I know that I definitely have very high pain tolerance. (Now my next step is to get my friends to do it too!)

To calm me down, which I think is not needed (hehe! yabang), ate told me stories about other customers who would cry or scream during the procedure. Fortunately, no one has ran out of the salon yet. She also told me that they also get male customers. I asked her if they're all gay but she said that some are actually straight. Ooh~ Sexy! Straight hairless papas! LOL.

I wasn't really planning on showing "it" to anyone since I've been quite single for the longest freakin' time in my life but I've tried it before and amidst the excruciating pain, the feeling of cleanliness after the procedure is so super nice. Plus, I got this procedure for free from Belle de Jour. I wonder if my Belle de Jour for 2009 has fab freebies like this. ^____^ I gotta check that out.

I also realized that this is the first time I wrote in months! Hah~ Gotta do it more often. Tell you about my next adventures next time. ;)

Grand Theft Auto 4 For Sale

2008-12-15T01:23:00.000-08:00

Calling all gamerboiz and gamergirls~!

Grand Theft Auto 4 is OUT!

Windows PC version

FOR SALE

for only

1,350 Pesos!

This is IMHO the best game you can give to your gamer boyfriend/girlfriend this holiday season so grab a copy now! :)

Call me nalang if you wanna order, k? :D 09299714559

DDR Dance Maniax 2

2008-10-27T02:27:00.000-07:00

Played DM2 last Saturday. I met with my cousins Carlos, Byron and TJ in Timezone G4 kasi.

And then today, I found this not-so-old-video of mine.

Double Wild!

Pero hindi ako bigay todo-wild dito sa video eh. LOL. Sana medyo ginanahan ko pa para mas astig yung video.

The one holding the cam and talking in the background is my bechoy - Ed. Hehe. Uuwi na sya here sa Philippines sa December. Alam na! Weeee~!

I <3 Warhammer

2008-10-26T21:28:00.000-07:00

Bought my Warhammer box last night right after going to church. I figured I should go ahead and indulge because I can't stop thinking about it.

It took forever to install just like any huge ass MMORPG I ever played but after the patching is done, it all became worth the wait.

I chose Darklands server because my very influential ninja friend is now a Goblin in it. I chose to be a Witch Elf. Why? Because it uses dual daggers and poison and be stealthy. Sounds familiar? Haha!

What else can I say? I love it so far. Masaya laruin.

And have you heard? The game designer of War whose name is Marc Jacobs (Parang sapatos lang. Haha!) said that he does not like gold farmers. His blog said pa nga...

"I hate gold sellers/spammers. No, that's not strong enough, let me try again. I HATE GOLD SELLERS WITH EVERY FIBRE OF MY BEING. Ah, that's better. Now, why do I hate them you may ask? I hate them for a number of reasons, most of which have been detailed in various interviews I've done over the years. And now that they have taken their obnoxiousness to new levels with gold service spamming, I HATE GOLD SPAMMERS EVEN MORE NOW THAN EVER BEFORE."

O di ba? Sozyalan!

"Since WAR launched we have been banning these jerks like crazy. As of Saturday Night, we had banned about 400 of them. My CSRs have a zero tolerance policy. We don't wait and let them stay in the game and ban them en-masse, my guys ban their useless, time-consuming butts right away. We have a strike team whose sole job it is to get these guys off our servers as quickly as possible."

Yun yon o!

The World is Just Awesome

2008-10-25T20:09:00.000-07:00

I Love The World
The Discover Channel Song

Astronaut 1: It never gets old, huh?
Astronaut 2: Nope.
Astronaut 1: It kinda makes you wanna...
Astronaut 2: ...Break into song?
Astronaut 1: Yeap.

I love the mountains
I love the clear blue skies
I love big bridges
I love when great whites fly
I love the whole world
And all its sights and sounds

Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da

I love the oceans
I love real dirty things
I love to go fast
I love Egyptian Kings
I love the whole world
And all its craziness

Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da

I love tornadoes
I love arachnids
I love hot magma
I love the giant squids
I love the whole world
It's such a brilliant place

Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da
Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da, Boom de ya da

Rick Astley Owned by Roderick Paulate

2008-10-25T19:44:00.000-07:00

When we were kids, do you remember Roderick Paulate singing Rick Astley songs? Well I do. And then I see this in YouTube.

Check this out.

There's a story behind this too! Click here!

Epic Duet.

E-Games Now Looking for Community Managers

2008-10-22T21:10:00.000-07:00

Bibo ka ba?

Magaling ka ba magsalita?

Magaling ka bang magsulat?

Ikaw ba'y may pleasing personality?

Mahilig ka ba maglaro ng online games?

Baka ikaw na ang hinahanap namin!!!

---

E-Games/X-Play is now looking for Community Managers for Audition, NBA Street and other future games we're launching on 2009!

More info ba kamo? O eto!

Duties and Responsibilities:

* Conceptualization and Implementation of in-game revenue generating events
* Interacting with gamers in-game and over the forums
* Clearing up any queries and doubts on official matters in the forums
* Getting involved in player-organized events by giving suggestions and/or being a judge for their contest/events as well as supporting and publicizing their events. Take note to take a back seat role in this and let players themselves manage their own events
* Setting up forum boards and managing forum moderation team (both internal staff and player moderators)
* Brainstorming with the GM Team and implementing ideas to bond community closer together
* Providing feedback to the GM team about how the community would feel about certain events that they are planning and about events that have already been run
* Organizing smaller, local community events (such as casual meet ups, dinners, community service etc)
* Getting feedback from community about anything game-related and directing them to the relevant department
* Answering the community´s emails
* Maintaining close contact with and scouting for potential game player ´leaders´
* Mentoring the player leaders and giving them ownership of little projects here and there
* Planning and conducting surveys and polls as and when GM/marketing/product department needs feedback
* E-viral latest game news and updates to websites and forums that the local community visits
* To report on latest happenings & feedback amongst the local community – in-game, forums and real life, report on the upcoming community events so that it can be publicized early on the main website
* Writing of articles that pertain to local community activities and upcoming local events

Requirements:

* Very good communication skills, both oral and written.
* Can perform and speak in public.
* No experience necessary, fresh graduates are encouraged to apply. (But having experience is definitely a PLUS!)
* Graduates of BA (Bachelor of Arts) courses are preferred.
* Knowledge in office productivity: MS Word, Excel and PowerPoint.
* Knows the basics of blogging.
* Pleasing personality
* Eager to learn
* Perky and bubbly
* Can work under extreme pressure around huge crowds

O ano? You na You ba? Apply na!

Email your application letter and resume to careers@ipvg.com. Don't forget to cc katherine.montiero@ipvg.com.

To see other job vacancies in E-Games, click this!

ATLANTICA Guarantees Satisfaction

2008-10-21T20:14:00.000-07:00

The developers are 100% sure we'll love Atlantica. If not, they’ll buy our characters for $20 in cash!

Details:

- Only players who began playing Atlantica after Oct. 11 are eligible.
- You must have reached and stopped at Level 50.
* Not eligible over Level 50.
- You must have a PayPal account in order to receive your $20.
- Only one (1) $20 payment per person.
- Once you receive payment, you will no longer be able to use the login ID.

Good one. First time I saw this, I was like "Whoaaa! Tapang mo, boy~!"

Una, it's free-to-play. Medyo mahirap makuha yung 20 USD because you gotta be level 50 and you gotta have a paypal.

How easy is it to be level 50 in this game? I asked my office mate Toby who's been playing this. Kaya daw in 1 week.

My next question was "Will you sell your account when it reaches 50?" He said "Siguro. Ewan. Tingnan natin." <-- Yun yon eh! Puede di ba?

The game has a bunch of nice features according to him. Turn based yung war but the game features are really something. The models and texture work is outstanding but the game play is different. It’s not the typical run around hack and slash type MMO.

Some people think it's just another Korean MMO but maybe it's not. Maybe they do have the "K" to do something like this. I'd like to see how this promo turns out. 'Katuwa eh! ^_^

Check this out! CLICK CLICK CLICK!!!

Nagpalit ka na ba ng napkin mo?

2008-10-21T01:15:00.000-07:00

Use of sanitary napkins for more than 3 hours can cause cervical cancer & bacteria infection.

IF u ever wondered what were the ingredients that made popular brands so 'free! and light and carefree', well here's the bit: The material that makes the pad so paper THIN, is cellulose gel. Yeap, it's not even cotton! DO NOT wear the same pad for more than 3 hours of a maximum! After this duration, the genital area is prone to bacterial action and may result in cervical cancer or other complications! REMEMBER! NEVER NEVER NEVER WEAR THE SAME PAD FOR MORE THAN 3 HOURS! SO yes, please pass on this message to as many women as possible and save lives!If you are a woman and use pads, but especially if you use tampons, read this and pass it on to your friends. For the men receiving this email, please forward it to your friends, significant others, wife, sisters, mothers, daughters, etc.) Thanks! Check the labels of the sanitary pads or tampons that you are going to buy the next time and see whether you spot any of the familiar signs stated in this email. No wonder so many women in the world suffer from cervical cancer and womb tumors.. Have you heard that tampon makers include asbestos in tampons? Why would they do this? Because asbestos makes you bleed more, if you bleed more, you're going to need to use more. Why isn't this against the law since asbestos is so dangerous? Because the powers that be, in all their wisdom (not), did not consider tampons as being ingested, and, therefore, didn't consider them illegal or dangerous. This month's Essence magazine has small article about this and they mention two manufacturers of a cotton tampon alternative. The companies are: Organic Essentials @1-800) 765-6491 and Terra Femme @(800)755-0212. A woman getting her Ph.D. at University of Colorado at Boulder sent the following: 'I am writing this because women are not being informed about the dangers of something most of us use: tampons. I am taking a class this month and I have been learning a lot about biology and women, including much about feminine hygiene. Recently we have learned that tampons are actually dangerous (for other reasons than TSS). I'll tell you this - after learning about this in our class, most of the females wound up feeling angry and upset with the tampon industry, and I for one, am going to do something about it To start, I want to inform everyone I can, and email is the fastest way that I know how.

HERE ! IS THE SCOOP: Tampons contain two things that are potentially harmf ul: Rayon (for absorbency), and dioxin (a chemical used in bleaching the products). The tampon industry is convinced that we, as women, need bleached white products in order to view the product as pure and clean. The problem here is that the dioxin, which is produced in this bleaching process, can lead to very harmful problems for a woman. Dioxin is potentially carcinogenic cancer-associated) and is toxic to the immune and reproductive systems. It has also been linked to endometriosis and lower sperm counts for men. For both sexes, it breaks down the immune system. Last September, the Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) reported that there really is no set 'acceptable' level of exposure to dioxin given that it is cumulative and slow to disintegrate. . The real danger comes from repeated contact Karen Couppert 'Pulling the Plug on the Tampon Industry'). I'd say using about 4-5 tampons a day, five days a month, for 38 menstruating years is 'repeated contact', wouldn't you? Rayon contributes to the danger of tampons and dioxin because it is a highly absorbent substance. Therefore, when fibers from the tampons are left behind in the vagina (as usually occurs), it creates a breeding ground for the dioxin. It also stays in a lot longer than it would with just cotton tampons. This is also the reason why TSS (toxic shock syndrome) occurs.

WHAT ARE THE ALTERNATIVES? Using feminine hygiene products that aren't bleached and that are all cotton. Other feminine hygiene products (pads/napkins) contain dioxin as well, but they are not nearly as dangerous since they are not in direct contact with the vagina. The pads/napkins need to stop being bleached, but, obviously, tampons are the most dangerous. So, what can you do if you can't give up using tampons? Use tampons that are made from 100% cotton, and that are UNBLEACHED.. Unfortunately, there are very few compani! es that make these safe tampons. They are usually only found in health food stores.

Countries all over the world (Sweden, Germany, British Columbia, etc.) have demanded a switch to this safer tampon, while the U..S. has decided to keep us in the dark about it. In 1989, activists in England mounted a campaign against chlorine bleaching. Six weeks and 50,000 letters later, the makers of sanitary products switched to oxygen bleaching (one of the green methods available) (MS magazine, May/June 1995)..

WHAT TO DO NOW: Tell people. Everyone. Inform them. We are being manipulated by this industry and the government, let's do something about it! Please write to the companies: Tampax(Tambrands) , Playtex, O.B., Kotex. Call the 800 numbers listed on the boxes. Let them know that we demand a safe product ALL COTTON UNBLEACHED TAMPONS.

Thanks to Heidi for the email. :)

Dragonball Online

2008-10-20T02:52:00.000-07:00

This is the game I have been waiting for.

Unlike the movie, this is something I will definitely see!

I've been a fan of Dragonball since I was 14. I can remember my buddy Chameng and I walking the flooded streets of Pasig during a signal number 3 typhoon named Katring just to get our hands on a VHS tape one of our classmates own. Yes! I will play this game no matter what!

Here's a preview from the Press Con in Korea.

It gives a good view of character creation and player screen view during game play.

Chameng!!! This is it! This is our game!

*ehemn*

Luckily, my friend Tracy works for Bandai Korea. Hehe! Sae Won! You owe me a CBT account! LOL!

Lessons from Bob Ong

2008-10-13T01:43:00.000-07:00

Sa PAG-IBIG:

"Kung hindi mo mahal and isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

"Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pag tinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon."

"Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo."

"Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

"Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

"Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

"Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

"Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

"Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

"Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

"Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

"Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?

"Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka."

"Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lang yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

Sa PAG-AARAL:

"Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay, sarap!)."

"Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university, maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba't-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan..."

"Hikayatin mo lahat ng kakilala mo na magkaroon ng kahit isa man lang paboritong libro sa buhay nila. Dahil wala nang mas kawawa pa sa mga taong literado pero hindi nagbabasa."

"dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. kung 'di mo pagtityagaan, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. sobrang lugi. kung alam lang 'yan ng mga kabataan, sa pananaw ko ehh walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela."

Sa BUHAY (IN GENERAL)

"nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures."

"Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang nakayapak, pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. Kung hindi mo kayang umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan."

"Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa'yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde. Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili."

"Tuparin ang mga pangarap. Obligasyon mo yan sa sarili mo. Kung gusto mo mang kumain ng balde-baldeng lupa para malagay ka sa Guinness Book of World Records at maipagmalaki ng bansa natin, sige lang. Nosi balasi. wag mong pansinin ang sasabihin ng mga taong susubok humarang sa'yo. Kung hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon, hindi pa rin tayo dapat nakatira sa jupiter ngayon. Pero hindi pa rin naman talaga tayo nakatira sa jupiter dahil nga hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon. Kita mo yung moral lesson?"

"Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. Bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo, at mauubos ang oras."

HALO-HALO

"Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima , sampung taon sa hinaharap, mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka."

"ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko."

"hinahanap mo nga ba ako o ang kawalan ko?"

"hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay kasinungalingan na ito. at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohanan. "

"Sabi nila, sa kahit ano raw problema, isang tao lang ang makakatulong sa'yo – ang sarili mo. Tama sila. Isinuplong ako ng sarili ko. Kaya siguro namigay ng konsyensya ang Diyos, alam niyang hindi sa lahat ng oras e gumagana ang utak ng tao."

"Obligasyon kong maglayag, karapatan kong pumunta sa kung saan ko gusto, responsibilidad ko ang buhay ko."

"Masama akong tao, tulad mo, sa parehong paraan na mabuti kang tao, tulad ko."

"Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala."

"iba ang walang ginagawa sa gumagawa ng wala."

"iba ang informal gramar sa mali !!!"

" Para san ba ang cellphone na may camera? Kung kailangan sa buhay un, dapat matagal na kong patay."

Idol ko talaga si Bob Ong. Hehe. Witty eh!

Dragonball (The Movie)

2008-10-07T20:38:00.000-07:00

No it ain't a joke.

1) What happened to Goku's hair? Why is he white???
2) Bulma with guns? Hello? She's supposed to be a rich little demanding biyatch and not a fighter
3) Who the hell is Mai?
4) Piccolo is green!!!
5) Master Roshi looks too young, where is the long beard and glasses?
6) What “Philosophy”?
7) The making out scene. Wth I dont remember anyone kissing.
8) Piccolo is not Darkvader.

There goes all the wonderful memories of my childhood... -_-

Why marriage?

2008-10-07T07:51:00.000-07:00

You have two choices in life:
You can stay single and be miserable,
or get married and wish you were dead.

At a cocktail party, one woman said to another,
'Aren't you wearing your wedding ring on the wrong finger?'
'Yes, I am. I married the wrong man.'

A lady inserted an ad in the classifieds:
'Husband Wanted'.
Next day she received a hundred letters.
They all said the same thing:
'You can have mine.'

When a woman steals your husband,
there is no better revenge than to let her keep him.

A little boy asked his father,
'Daddy, how much does it cost to get married?'
Father replied, 'I don't know son, I'm still paying.'

A young son asked,
'Is it true Dad, that in some parts of Africa
a man doesn't know his wife until he marries her?'
Dad replied, 'That happens in every country, son.'

Then there was a woman who said,
'I never knew what real happiness was until I got married,
and by then, it was too late.'

If you want your spouse to listen and
pay strict attention to every word you say -- talk in your sleep.

First guy says, 'My wife's an angel!'
Second guy remarks, 'You're lucky, mine's still alive.'

'A Woman's Prayer:
Dear Lord, I pray for: Wisdom, To understand a man , to Love and to forgive him , and for patience, For his moods. Because Lord, if I pray for Strength I'll just beat him to death'

AND NOW FOR THE FAVORITE!!!

Husband and wife are waiting at the bus stop with their nine children. A blind man joins them after a few minutes. When the bus arrives, they find it overloaded and only the wife and the nine kids are able to fit onto the bus.

So the husband and the blind man decide to walk. After a while, the husband gets irritated by the ticking of the stick of the blind man as he taps it on the sidewalk, and says to him, 'Why don't you put a piece of rubber at the end of your stick? That ticking sound is driving me crazy.'

The blind man replies, 'If you had put a rubber at the end of YOUR stick, we'd be riding the bus, so shut the hell up.'

Thanks to arni for the email

Next Life

2008-10-06T01:16:00.000-07:00

In my next life I want to live my life backwards . You start out dead , and get that out of the way .

Then you wake up in an old people's home , feeling better every day .

You get kicked out for being too healthy , go collect your pension, and then when you start work , you get a gold watch and a party on your first day .

You work for 40 years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement.

You party , drink alcohol, and are generally promiscuous , and then you are ready for high-school .

You then go to primary school. You become a kid, and you play . You have no responsibilities . You become a baby , until you are born.

And then , you spend your last 9 months floating in luxurious, spa-like conditions , with central heating and room service on tap, larger quarters every day.

And then : VOILA ! You finish off as an orgasm!

I rest my case.

Source: Woody Allen

Looking for ROOM for RENT near Makati CBD

2008-09-22T21:12:00.000-07:00

I'm posting this ad everywhere! I hope people who can help actually answer these ads and honestly, I hope there are no freaks who even read and respond to these ads. LOL!

---

Hello~! ^_^

I'm a single female working in MAKATI CBD looking for a SOLO ROOM for RENT.

Preferences:
1. Airconditioned
2. Furnished
3. Cable TV (or not)
4. No curfew (I work from 9AM until 11PM)
5. Vistors allowed (Just my yaya. No boys.)
6. Walking distance or a jeepney ride from RCBC Plaza at most.
7. Internet connection is a PLUS!
8. With own toilet and bathroom

You can reach me at:
mobile1 #:09299714559
mobile2 #:09065143415
email: ching.merano@gmail.com
msn: shadowmaidens@hotmail.com
skype: ching.merano
yahoo: ching_merano

Please send me your name, address of the place so i can go take a lookie and the price.

Thanks! ^_^

Dear Mom

2008-09-20T07:47:00.000-07:00

It's been a year since you passed away.

If you're wondering... I'm doing well. I'm back in Manila and I got a good job here too. Lots of other things happened but you need not know that. :P One day, I'll give you the whole deal. I'm still workin' on a good ending to my story. :)

I'm also back in church just like what you asked. HE called me after all. Haha! Cool, right?

I miss you, Ma. I do get lonely sometimes though. Losing you means I'm alone in life now. It sucks when I remember that fact but I'm alright. I'm one strong girl. ^_^

I'm amazed now that I realize the reasons behind the things you did when you were still alive. I used to question why you insisted I leave our house and live on my own when I can't even afford my own apartment.

You taught me how to stand on my own two feet. You taught me the need to strive for something more in order to live.

Thanks for teaching me how to be independent. I'd probably be doomed if you didn't.

I miss you, Ma. We'll see each other someday.

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

Blast from the past

2008-09-15T20:05:00.000-07:00

Ever wondered how you will look like IF you lived in the past?

Now I know... LOL

My office mates introduced a website to me that made me find out just that. Click click click!!!

Parang gusto kong magpa-afro... Wahahahaha!

I would have to say my favorite is 1961. It reminds me of...

Good morning, Baltimore! LOL

Left or Right Brain?

2008-08-27T18:53:00.000-07:00

Stare at this picture and tell me which direction the dancer is turning. Is she turning clockwise or counter-clockwise?

If clockwise, then you use more of the right side of the brain. If counter-clockwise, you use more of the left side.

Like me, most people would see the dancer turning counter-clockwise though you can try to focus and change the direction; see if you can do it too! I did it!

LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses logic
detail oriented
facts rule
words and language
present and past
math and science
can comprehend
knowing
acknowledges
order/pattern perception
knows object name
reality based
forms strategies
practical
safe

RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses feeling
"big picture" oriented
imagination rules
symbols and images
present and future
philosophy & religion
can "get it" (i.e. meaning)
believes
appreciates
spatial perception
knows object function
fantasy based
presents possibilities
impetuous
risk taking

Source: http://www.news.com.au

Searching for the new me

2008-08-21T23:57:00.000-07:00

Phage has been a part of me. For 5 years, I carried the same GM name in the Philippines (Level Up!) and in Vietnam (VinaGame). In fact, even until now and wherever I go, people still call me GM Phage. Nostalgic.

For those who has not seen this part of me and never knew me as Phage, here's a summary:

I was a Game Master of Philippine Ragnarok and ROSE Online during their glory days between 2003 and 2006. I also served Level Up! as Community Manager for both games. Because of company and games' popularity, my dedication to my job and the gaming communities' acceptance and appreciation, I was branded as the most popular and even controversial GM/CM that time. This is something I truly thank Level Up! for.

After 3 years with Level Up!, VinaGame took me under its wing and that's when I said goodbye to the Philippine gaming community and went to Vietnam. And since I AM Phage, I retained my name and remained in my identity.

And now, I am back. However, I do not work for Level Up! anymore. And I can't use Phage anymore. Here are 2 reasons:

1. According to surveys, eGames players hate Level Up!. And since Phage is tied to Level Up!, that could be bad news for me. LOL.
2. I promised Jake I won't use Phage. So in respect to my former company, I won't.

Now...

Akroma was a sentient illusion, created by Ixidor in the image of his wife, Nivea, who was killed by Phage in a pit fight. The powerful archangel waged a holy war against the Cabal(Phage in particular) in defense of and later in revenge for Ixidor. Akroma was injured by Phage and her deathwums and Ixidor "rebuilt" her with the legs of a jaguar. During a confrontation, she and Phage, along with a woman named Zagorka, fused into Karona, the Goddess of Magic.

What do you think of Akroma? LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Phage the Untouchable Vs Akroma, Angel of Wrath
Magic the Gathering

Puede ring si Karona nalang...

The planet may well share the fate of the continent of Otaria as the Scourge set comes on the Magic scene. If you thought the Phage-Akroma war was nasty, that's nothing compared to what's in store. The reason: Karona. For those of you who didn't read the Legions novel (and shame on you if you didn't!), here's the skinny: Akroma and Phage met on the battlefield for their final confrontation. Kamahl, finally roused out of his meditation to deal with the serious events unfolding, attempted to strike Phage down and end the bloodshed once and for all. But something . . . happened. Think of it this way: Akroma is a white character created by a blue mage. Phage is a black character that was once red. And in the middle of all this is a character bursting with green magic (not to mention the green mana being pumped out by the Mirari). Put it all together, and what do you get? A battlefield that contains all five Magic colors.

Kamahl's interference, and the Mirari's power, fuses Akroma and Phage into an awesomely powerful being encompassing all five colors. Karona, as this fledgling god calls herself, brings most of Otaria to its knees. Every race sees her as one of its own gods: to the soldiers and clerics, she appears to be the Ancestor; to the elves, she is the ultimate avatar of nature; and so on. Her Decrees to these races are short and sweet: wage war for her. And they do, with gusto. The entire continent is engulfed in one huge civil war, and due to his role in her creation, Kamahl stands alone as one of the only beings unaffected by Karona's commands. His only hope is to reach out to Ixidor, still imprisoned from the events of the Onslaught set, and together the two of them must try to stop Karona before her power grows to unstoppable proportions. Of course, in a battle this big, with the stakes so high, not everyone is going to get out of this alive.

Karona seems like a nice name too. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Source: http://www.wizards.com/

Memorable Movie Lines

2008-08-19T19:03:00.000-07:00

Let's see if you remember these:

"You're nothing but a second-rate, trying hard copycat!"
- Cherie Gil, Bituing Walang Ningning (1985)

"Para kang karinderyang bukas sa lahat ng gustong kumain."
- Vilma Santos, Palimos ng Pag-ibig (1985)

"Walang himala! Ang himala ay nasa puso ng tao! Nasa puso nating lahat!"
- Nora Aunor, Himala (1982)

"My brother is not a pig! My brother is not a pig! Ang kapatid ko ay tao, hindi baboy damo!"
- Nora Aunor, Minsa'y Isang Gamugamo (1976)

"Once, twice, thrice, gaano ba kadalas ang minsan?"
- Hilda Koronel, Gaano Kadalas ang Minsan (1982)

"Ayoko ng tinatapakan ako, ayoko ng masikip, ayoko ng mabaho, ayoko ng walang tubig, ayoko ng walang pagkain, ayoko ng putik""
- Maricel Soriano, Kaya Kong Abutin ang Langit (1984)

"Hayop... Hayuuup... Hayuuupppp!"
- Nora Aunor, Ina Ka Ng Anak Mo (1979)

"Trabaho lang ito, walang personalan."
- Rudy Fernandez, Markang Bungo (1991)

"Si Val! Si Val! Puro na lang si Val! Si Val na walang malay!"
- Vilma Santos, Saan Nagtatago ang Pag-ibig (1987)

"Ikaw pala. Ikaw pala ang sinasabi ng asawa ko na asawa mo na asawa ng bayan!"
- Laurice Guillen, Nagalit ang Buwan sa Haba ng Gabi (1983)

"Akala mo lang wala.. pero meron!! meron!! meron!!"
- Carlo Aquino, Bata, Bata...Paano Ka Ginawa (1998)

"Gutay-gutay na ang katawan nyo... pati na ang kaluluwa nyo, gutay-gutay na rin!"
- Sharon Cuneta- Pasan Ko ang Daigdig (1987)

"Sabel! This must be love!"
- Carmi Martin, Working Girls (1986)

FPJ: "Ang problema sa'yo maaga kang ipinanganak"
Sharon: "Ang problema naman sa'yo huli kang ipinanganak"
- Sharon Cuneta and Fernando Poe Jr., Kahit Konting Pagtingin (1990)

"Wala akong pakialam..ibalik mo sa akin si Jun-jun. Ibalik mo sa akin ang anak ko! Ibalik mo sa akin si Jun-jun. Ibalik mo ang...ahhhhh!"
- Vilma Santos, Paano Ba Ang Mangarap (1983)

"Kung saan, kailan, at paanong labanan, magpasabi ka lang. Hindi kita uurungan!"
- Sharon Cuneta, Dapat Ka Bang Mahalin (1984)

Alice: "Mamamatay ako, Ate, pag kinuha mo sa akin si Alex!"
Lorna: "Ipalilibing kita."
Alice: "Ate, please!"
Lorna: "Nung inagaw mo sa 'kin si... muntik na rin akong mamatay. Puwes, ikaw naman ngayon ang mamatay"
- Lorna Tolentino and Alice Dixson, Nagbabagang Luha (1988)

"Simple lang naman ang hinihingi ko. Kung hindi mo ako marespeto bilang asawa, respetuhin mo naman ako bilang kaibigan. Kung hindi naman, respetuhin mo ako bilang tao."
- Vilma Santos, Relasyon (1982)

Rene: "cheetaehhh....ganda lalake!"
Echo: "ulol! Sinungaling! Panget! Panget!"
- Rene Requiestas, Starzan

"Kung hindi tayo kikilos sino ang kikilos? Kung hindi ngayon, kailan pa?"
- Vilma Santos, Sister Stella L. (1984)

[source: http://kkkid-network.dailyforum.net]

and the latest one...

I never asked you to love me. So don't make me feel that I have to love you back. Tigilan mo na 'to. Mapapagod ka lang.
- John Lloyd Cruz, A Very Special Love (2008)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Ang corny ko!

Updates from Busy-me

2008-08-12T20:35:00.000-07:00

Physically - I'm getting thinner. Or at least my yaya and tita says so. Oh yeah! Pao thinks so too. (We had lunch yesterday at Pepperlunch sa Rockwell with Quing. It's really nice to see them again. Weeee!)

Emotionally - I'm more mature! I don't get easily down anymore. I know my goals and I don't get affected with petty stuff na.

Professionally - Well, I started working at eGames July 28. So far so good. I like the people there. They're very nice. The environment is very different from Level Up! and VinaGame but I like it. I'm gonna be launching a game soon! Weeee! Which one? I... can't really say.

Spiritually - I'm now a Kalihim at the Locale of Paranaque. I go there every Sunday. On Thursdays, I go to the Locale of Bel Air in Makati. It's near the office kasi.

Socially - I got new friends from work and at church. Uhmn... oh yeah! Zarah and Jeff are now married! Yey! 08.08.08 So Chinese no? Para lucky! Ano pa ba?... uhmn... yan na muna. ^_^

A Very Special Love

2008-08-12T01:08:00.000-07:00

Yes. I watched it. And honestly, I had fun. x_X

Last Saturday, my Aunt Linda insisted we watch it instead of Adam Sandler’s Zohan (which I still intend to watch by the way). Amidst my dismay, since I’m not really into Filipino movies (I am one of those Filipinos in the “Kulo” category. Kulo-nial mentality. Hahaha! Corny!), I watched it with her anyway.

You know what? I actually liked the movie. The story is somehow basic. Parang alam mo na agad ang ending. Eventually, the girl gets her dreamboy and they live happily ever after. May ganyang effect! LOL.

And the best part is, I felt something that I have never felt in years. I was so kinikilig! I was giggling and feeling giddy all throughout the movie. Grabe! Nandidiri ako sa sarili ko!!!

Ang guapo pala ni John Lloyd Cruz, no? I’ve never watched Tabing Ilog. I remember, Pao asked me once if I remember the Tabing Ilog days and I went “Uhh… I never watched that.” Which is true. ‘Di ko talaga sya napanood. Pero yes, guapo pala sya. He reminds me of Mike. My ex-boyfriend. Shucks… Ang guapo talaga nya. Sayang babaero lang. Engot pa. Magtetext lang sa ibang babae na-missend pa sa nanay ko! Haynakupoooo! Kakatawa pag naaalala ko. ROFL.

Anyway, back to my kilig moments. Napa-isip tuloy ako. Shucks… Ganito pala ang feeling ng single. Oh my gosh. I’ve been officially single for 1 year and 1 month na! (Mainly because my two other relationships that came after my break-up with Bio are not counted. LOL) Palibhasa never ako nabakante ng ganito katagal. @____@

What do you think?... Maybe I should have a boyfriend na?...

ASA!!! Wag nalang. Ang saya kaya ng single! XD

The Two Tribes of the Philippines

2008-07-23T04:24:00.000-07:00

The Philippines is ruled by two main tribes:

The Gamers and the Gangsters... (the minority is composed of bugoys, parents and polititians)

Those two tribes isolated each other until the great god Marcos gave them the "human female". The gangsters wanted sex slaves while the gamers wanted goddesses to be worshipped. Then, the great war started.

The gangsters grabbed 80% of the females the god gave philippines, leaving the gamers only with 20%. The gamers trained the females with the art of DotA, counter-strike and diablo2, then the gamers launched their offensive again the gangsters in the decisive battle of Netopia. The gamer force was defeated by the gangsters application of drugs that turns idiotic retards into frenzied berserkers! Massive damage was dealt and the gamer force retreated!

Then Level Up! games released Ragnarok online... the great wave of enlightenment converted a great amount of gangsters and "bugoys" into gamers! The gangsters countered the wave by making people listen to black eyed peas and other rapcrap, but they did'nt succeed because a few elite female gamers of the anti-rap police tracked down Colonel General Mr.RapGuy of the gangster army and assassinated him!

The gangster army collapsed because those idiots can't breathe if they aren't listening to music... the gamers left the remaining alone because it is against the gamer code rule #54 "do not pwn the losers, for they shall pwn themselves"... but... that was their undoing... the gangsters took over ABS-CBN and GMA they used filipino dubbed dragonball anime as propaganda by changing every other word into "gangster". the great plan was a "success".

However, children all over the land died... The gangsters were shocked by the results... Desparate, they secured nightclubs, malls and parks. Gamers can no longer go to malls and buy cds, and the gamers were pissed. They hijacked the phone company and removed all the dial-up connections of the gangsters. The gangsters no longer have a source for their retarded music plus eons of buttsex that gave them various STDs led them to extinction... the country is now free from the plague of hip-hop and the gamers across the land roam free!

Source: Urban Dictionary

Funny, ain't it?

All Filipinos can sing

2008-07-22T22:09:00.000-07:00

This is what came into my mind the moment I saw this video.

When I was in Vietnam, Filipinos have been stereotyped like this. Not like I have anything against it. This is better than being stereotyped as thieves or stupid or whatever. I heared that this is the case in the Middle East. Yikes.

Anyway, this thing about Pinoys being good singers is because most of the bands in Vietnam are Filipinos. Or Canadians trying to be Filipinos. (LOL! Right, Jen?)

I remember my first day in VinaGame. I was introduced to the Chairman. "You're Filipino right?", he said. "Yes, Sir." "So you sing?" And I said "Yes...?" And they signed me up for the company-wide singing contest that day. @_____@

The same thing happens during videoke parties with Vietnamese friends or anytime singing is the topic of the conversation. Luckily, most friends of mine can definitely sing. Pollynne has a great voice. Bossa pa yung style nya. Jobert is good too. Nakaka-second voice pa. Masarap ka-duet. And Jenny. Jenny is the most popular expat na singer sa Saigon.

Anyway, back with the video. I honestly have not heard of Mark Mejia. (The kid in the middle) But this video made me wonder where he and his friends are from. And as suspected, I'm right. They're Filipinos. Thus, the title of this blog entry.

Mark is only one of the many Filipinos who enter prestigious shows like Star Search or American Idol. There are also Filipinos in popular international groups today.

If you're in the Philippines kasi, you won't see it eh. But if you go outside the Philippines, you'll realize it. The Vietnamese are right somehow. Maybe not all... but definitely MOST Filipinos CAN sing WELL.

Moving to Paranaque!

2008-07-22T21:02:00.001-07:00

I spoke with my aunt Linda a few days ago if I can stay with her while I'm working in Makati. Binangonan is too far from Makati. Even though Binangonan still falls within the Greater Manila Area, it still takes me 3.5 hours to get to RCBC tower. Traffic included of course. If I stay in Paranaque, I'm guessing it will only take me 45 minutes to get to work.

Having a car is no longer practical in the Philippines. Gasoline is too expensive, the traffic is hell, food is expensive... heck... everything's expensive. I miss Vietnam in times like this. LOL.

*sighs* I gotta learn how to commute without taking taxis. Taxi drivers are not very nice in this country. LOL. I miss Vietnam again.

You know what? I tried taking the bus a few days ago. You know one of those open busses with no airconditioning? Yeah those. Felt like riding a roller coaster! Haha! Kinda fun but scary. I might try it again one of these days as long as i got someone with me. Nakakatakot. Di pa ako bumababa umaandar na sya. Waaaaa!

So ayun. I'm moving to Paranaque on Thursday right after I go to church. Which means I have to go to church very early. I think I need an extra business day to practice on commuting to and from the office. And getting my requirements done.

I went to NBI yesterday. T'was fast. Kinda scary though. I don't like Quiapo that much. Nakaka-paranoid. Parang laging may sasaksak sa akin. LOL!

After NBI, I went to RCBC Tower for my check up. Gotta go back there on Friday. Gotta fix my schedule...

Oh and I met with old friends yesterday too. Called Jhanice when I was in RCBC Tower and met with her and Paul who was just at Mandarin Oriental for some training. It was kinda nice. 3 former team mates now belonging to 3 different gaming companies. No discussions about work though. Just reminiscing the old days.

While we're sipping coffee at Starbucks, more old friends and bosses passed by and said their hellos. I was really happy to see them all again.

What's love got to do with it?

2008-07-18T18:55:00.000-07:00

Nothing.

Living a quiet and hassle-free life is possible when you don't have anyone messing up with your head. LOL.

Sounds a bit bitter but it's true. Life has become easier for me recently.

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Been more than a month since my last blog entry. I got friends sending me messages in Yahoo, MSN, Skype, FaceBook, Friendster etc to update my blog so here it is. Haha! Sorry guys!

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I got back in Manila a month ago (June 12) and everything's pretty fine so far.

Got job offers from 3 gaming companies and I signed up with one of them 2 days ago for a Product Manager position. I'm very happy about it and I will do my best!

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Thanksgiving is happening soon! I'm currently getting myself ready for that. Thanksgiving is important to us like how Christmas is for others. And to top it off, we do this twice in a year. ^_^

There are so many things I wanna thank God for. My good friends, my new job, more good things in the future. Ahh... Life is good!

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I miss Vietnam. I will definitely go back to visit my friends soon. Maybe on October or November. Not sure about the date but I am sure I will go and visit.

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This is yet another beginning of a new day, a new life and I'm feeling good! ^_^

Goodbye, Sai Gon

2008-06-08T08:16:00.000-07:00

I'm finally saying goodbye to Ho Chi Minh city.

Kinda sad really...

*sighs*

I know I gave myself until June 30 to decide but some people just really encouraged me to go and book that plane ticket earlier than scheduled.

Ang drama kasi ni Jobert eh. So sasabay nalang ako sa kanya pauwi. Kanina nagtatampung pururot sa kapilya na kesyo mawawala na daw ako. Para akong made-deads di ba?

Once I get home, I'd probably register myself muna sa Darangan. So it's near my house. Then, if ever I'd land that job in Makati, papa-transfer ako sa Bel-air or Evangelista. That would be fun, right? I am confident everything's gonna be alright. ^_^

I'm so excited to go home! Grabe!

Oh and yeah... one more thing. I'm so happy this week. ^_^ Still sick... but happy. Weeeeee! God loves me talaga grabe! (Shempre ikaw din. :P)

So... who's gonna pick me up from the airport? My yahoo is now open for bids. Bidding starts now! :P

Party at Sam's house at Sky Garden on Wednesday night. 8-10PM. Send me an sms for details. :)

Question...

2008-06-08T01:08:00.000-07:00

Anong ginagawa ni Samantha Cole sa harap ng kapilya namin?

Watch 1:51-1:54, 2:00-2:03, and 2:17-2:22.

LOL. La lang.

Special thanks to Joe for pointing this out to me. QA ka talaga! Lech!

Nostalgic! She's the reason I got my hair curled in the late 90s. Haha!

cough cough sniff

2008-06-06T03:46:00.000-07:00

Been sick for more almost 2 weeks now.

It sucks.

I can't go out... The only place I go to is church.

Coughing won't stop amidst medication. My colds too. I feel much better now but... It's still there.

I can't sing either. My throat hurts because of the constant coughing.

And the plegm? Yuck.

Anyway, spiritually, this week's been great. I wrote salaysays for 5 tungkulins. That's a lot right? That would be... kalihim for the locale, kagawad for LOS, LSP, Leader for Sports (lol) Culture and Arts, and group leader for the Kapisanan ng Kadiwa.

The locale is small so we need to handle more than 1 duty. There's this sister who handles 6 even.

Anyway, I plan to do something for all these duties before I leave Vietnam.

I know the deadline I set for myself (June 30) is still far away but I have this strong feeling that I am going home.

Now, I'm just waiting for an e-mail from a certain gaming company regarding details for a certain job and the stuff that go along with it. Once it's cool, it'll be "bye bye Ho Chi Minh" and "Makati, I'm back!" :D

I'm so very excited.

1. I'll be with my friends again.
2. I can finally sleep in my own house again.
and
3. Eat Filipino food everyday.

Goodluck with the crime rate and the polution though... x___X

What locale is the nearest INC chapel from Ayala avenue?